DD4 is a wonderful baby, but since I have returned to work she's much more demanding. Before returning to work nursing was a breeze, peaceful, nurturing. In short, it was everything it should be. She was even sleeping for long stretches and just happy in general. Now that I'm back at the office she's an absolute terror when it comes to nursing. She screams and has a poor latch suddenly. The poor latch isn't a constant variable, but it seems to be getting more often. With three other small children at home and with both of us having demanding jobs I'm not sure what to do.
I'm pumping constantly and producing around 30 ounces of milk per day. Plus if I'm at home and can't pump quickly enough I nurse her. She is also supplemented with a sensitive formula. She's overeating, but I feel more comfortable letting her determine when she gets fed versus implementing a feeding schedule. (She has been greedy with her milk from the beginning, so this issue is no surprise.) I'm tempted to begin solely formula feeding just so she's satisfied because she does alot better on the bottle now and seems to prefer the formula.
I've been pregnant and/or nursing for the past two and a half years now. I'm exhausted and need a break. I need to be me again and be able to cater to my other children as well. The pediatrician has given me an abundance of guilt trips regarding this matter. I'm really torn on what to do. I can barely function at work and I'm in a position where I must work so that we can buy a home and pay down our debts as well as provide for our children on our own. DH is exhausted as well and can barely function. But I don't want to do something I will feel guilty about later.