I just had my 3rd baby, a beautiful little boy, on July 14th. While pregnant, DH and I agreed we were DONE. And I was SO SURE of it too. Wasn't going to miss being pregnant, wasn't going to want anymore children--I was convinced this was it.
Well... the transistion from 2-3 has been much easier than expected... and even at just 16 days PP, I am already thinking,"...maybe just ONE more?". DH says he is DONE (Though he did change his mind recently on getting a vasectomy... he says the thought of any permanent change like that suddenly freaks him out). In my mind I totally agree with DH... but in my heart, I don't feel "done". I feel too young to stop having kids. I am only 30. The thought of closing this exciting chapter of my life makes me feel sad and really empty.
My mother had 8 children and she STILL wanted more! I certainly don't want 8, but I just feel I am not done yet. Maybe it's just the biological drive in a woman... maybe in a few more weeks this feeling will go away. Maybe I don't really want another child, but just really miss being pregnant--the kicks, the flutters, the excitement, anticipation, the wondering.... all of it. It's such an exciting chapter in life, and I am very sad about closing it. In a way, not having any more kids makes me feel, well, old. And closer to my mortality, if that makes any sense. I never would have thought it would feel this way when we stopped having kids.I thought you just stopped and that was that. I never thought it would make me feel so sad.
So tell me, does the feeling for "just one more" ever go away?