Thanks for the reassurance ladies. Intellectually I know that everything is probably okay, but emotionally it was still a huge let down to hear an eerie lack of heartbeat on the Doppler, I think part of the problem is that I've started feeling so much better over the past couple of weeks. Aside from my heartburn and weird itchy spots I'm feeling great. I'm embracing the symptoms I have though.
As far as the appointment, it was really nice. My midwife and the doula who is apprenticing with her to become a midwife came over to my house. We chatted for a while about my itchy spots, and we're thinking they are actually hives and not mosquito bites. My guess is they're from my dog touching her wet nose into my skin. Then we discussed how my symptoms have been. She didn't think I needed to do any blood work yet, especially where we're confident we're both RH-. We also discussed where I would do my labs and ultrasounds so they would be covered by my insurance. My prenatal care is 100% covered, but I have a $3000 deductible for the hospital, so it does work out to be less expensive to go through a midwife as long as everything goes well, and I get my insurance to pay for the extras. My midwife charges $3000 for everything. My midwives gave me some forms to fill out for my history and we discussed prenatal testing a little bit. We agreed that if you're not going to abort, there's really no reason to get yourself worked up waiting for results or possibly having a false positive. The lack of a heartbeat was actually a pretty good example of that. We also discussed my asthma a little bit and how I've been dealing with that. It was kinda weird to pee in a cup in my own bathroom, but at least my house was nice and clean!
My first appointment with my previous Dr. was mostly just gathering family history and doing labs, so this was a nice change. I feel like I got some really good advice about handling symptoms (like a little maneuver to get rid of heartburn, and the position to get rid of gas), and it was nice to not feel guilty about having questions because I'm taking up precious time.