Hugs, Crunchy. Some of us do "know" you here, and you are welcome to open up anytime! I hope things start to look up soon.
I have to say, I started paying better attention to my diet the past few weeks, and I feel much less "down" than usual. I am taking a fish oil supplement 3x/day that helps my joints feel better, it's helping clear up my skin, and I think it's contributing to a slightly better mood. (Not saying it's a cure for real depression, but it's helping take the edge off a little.) I also decided to cut out wheat and all grains for awhile to see how that would affect me, and at the very least it's forcing me to eat more vegetables (I'm shooting for 9/day) which I've always been terrible about. Obviously, a healthier diet without processed food and whatever else my body considers "junk" (I've been told before to cut out wheat but I have a serious love affair with bread) will help my mood, but I've never been motivated to do it before. Now I've decided that enough is enough, b/c I'm tired of being tired all the time. I'm drawn to the couch like a moth to flame! After two weeks of being nearly grain-free (had a couple of backslides), I feel SO much better already. And I'm drinking a ton of water, which, if nothing else, keeps me moving since I have to pee every 20 minutes. (But it is also helping my skin and helping me feel good.)
For me, it has been all about baby steps and finding one small thing I can do, one change I can make in my self-care that not only helps me feel better but leads to other small steps. (It seems that eating tons of veggies makes me feel thirsty, so I drink more water. Restricting wheat means that when I want a snack or just something to munch on, I can't have the cookies. The only other "easy" think we have are carrots or celery or baby cucumbers. I have NOT given up the ranch dressing that goes on them, yet, but at least it's homemade and lower-fat than store-bought...) Can you find something like that? Maybe a couch workout like a PP suggested that you give yourself time for every day? A walk by yourself (or maybe with your son if he can walk with you -- it doesn't have to be a power walk, just as long as he can be happy and safe on the walk)? A pretty water bottle that you drink from all day?