So...I'm at 32 1/2 weeks, and starting to realize the reality of the situation, and am feeling strangely unbonded and resistent.
I have never had this happen! I did lose 3 babies before this one stuck, but you'd think that would increase my joy and gratefulness and make me just so glad to have gotten this far...
But it doesn't.
I don't know why, but I'm feel really weird-resistent, depressed and annoyed about having to take on the additional responsibility of a baby on top of all I'm shouldering at the moment. I don't know exactly why I'm feeling this way, though I certainly can guess on some of the contributing factors-which I can't really go into here....
Anyone else know that they SHOULD feel one way, but ACTUALLY don't feel that way at all? I'm having such a tough time dealing with all this guilt and worry that I won't be able to bond the way I need to do parent closely and breastfeed all the time.