I've been in increasingly bad pain for the last three weeks. It started out just feeling sore, like I had been kicked in the crotch repeatedly. Then it progressed to sharp stabbing pains in my vagina when I sit for too long, walk, stand on one leg, and going up stairs is next to impossible. I've been to my midwives three times now. The first time the speculum made me bleed, so I was in L&D for hours getting monitored. After a while I was told the baby is fine and sent home with a "try to relax, you should be fine." The pain got worse, so I went back in and was told this type of pain is normal, all pregnant women feel it, I should just try to go easy. Last night I was in tears after work, and I could barely get home. The walk seemed like it took ages. We called my midwife on call who just explained that this is normal, my pubic bone is stretching, and all women feel it. It's just one of the "joys" of pregnancy and I should just try to push through it.
I'm finding it very hard to believe that's true. I'm no stranger to pain. I played contact sports for years, have torn ligaments and dislocated joints. I've had broken bones. I've suffered from migraines all my life. I'm not "uncomfortable." I'm in a state of constant mild and frequent excruciating pain. And I feel like I'm being treated like some hyper-sensitive hysterical first time mom. I'm not worried about my baby. I feel him all the time. He's been checked a million times. I know he's fine. And now I'm being made to feel selfish because *I* don't feel fine. And I feel like screaming "I'm more than just my baby. It's great my baby is fine. Now please take care of ME." I don't really know what to do at this point. I've called in sick so many days because I can barely walk that I'm afraid I'm going to lose my job. I just want someone to take me seriously.