I'm about ready to give up on this waiting for labor thing, not that I can actually give up the waiting.
Last night we decided on an early night. I haven't been sleeping very well for several nights, and so yesterday DH suggested I nap in the afternoon after Church. Well before I could nap I went into super nesting mode and HAD to get everything in our bedroom ready for birth. I removed all the decorative bedding, pillows etc, decluttered and even braided my hair so it would be out of the way. Once I was done I finally managed to get some sleep while DH spent time with DS. However I was still really tired after I got up which is why we decided on an extra early night. We were in bed by 8pm, but I didn't even get the light switched off when I started contracting. They felt different from the previous contractions and were mostly just on my left side, but they were steady even if not very painful. And so started a merry-go-round of guessing if this was the real deal. I truly had no idea. Last time the real labor started with my waters breaking and there was no mistaking post rupture contractions as they were pretty intense from the get go. This time I knew if my water didn't break it would probably feel totally different.
At different points I would comment to DH that I wasn't sure what would come first the baby or poop, as some of the contractions really made me feel like I wanted to poop really badly, but when I used the bathroom there was nothing happening, and trying to poop only made the contractions more painful. After about four hours of slow steadily increasing contractions DH was convinced it was definitely labor and refused to go back to sleep (I'd sent him to the sofa to sleep earlier as no point in us both being over tired.) He sounded excited to be meeting the baby. We decided to try and strengthen the contractions first with some nipple stimulation, which really worked at making them more definite, then we decided to have sex and see if that would bring it up a gear. I still wasn't sure at this point if it was real labor or not. I had a couple of long contractions during sex, which was a weird feeling, and unfortunately meant I didn't get to orgasm like I'd hoped to move things along. Finally after 6 hours of this is it, isn't it contracting I finally managed to poop, and then I had two more contractions. That was it, it was over, I was disappointed, told DH to get some sleep and spent another 2 hours trying to get some sleep myself.
I am so tired today, but I have decided that I really don't want to labor overnight after all. Its too exhausting to loose that much sleep then have to get up as usual and run around after DS all day. Fortunately he is down for his morning nap, and I'm going to head back to bed soon too and try to get a bit more sleep. I've also decided that I'm going to stop torturing myself by thinking about labor, and instead I'm just going to have the attitude that this baby isn't coming out until Labor Day weekend. And no more questioning these stupid prodromal contractions. If I'm not 100% sure its real then as far as I'm concerned it isn't real, as I really don't want to go through all that drama again, just to have it all stop.
Happy Monday everyone.