Trying to Conceive #2 - Page 44

[Ava's Mama]

Hi ladies, so nice to see this thread active again. 

I am another case of successful pregnancy post miscarriage.  I am now 36 weeks pregnant :)  Good luck to you all and keep supporting each other, I know this thread was a huge help for me!

[jpack]

Oh my gosh, I'm really, really glad this thread is back in the action! Wow, Ava's Mom, Mamaforever, Farrahlilly, congrats, and I'm really happy everything is going well for you! to new faces and old, too! :) I was active both here and on the One thread until my m/c in April. DH and I have one DD, born in June of 2009 -- I CAN'T believe she is three! Anyway, we started trying in August/September of 2011 and were all naive because DD was conceived on the first try. I got my first BFP in December, miscarried in January, and the second cycle after that got another BFP. It was a blighted ovum, and m/c-ed naturally around 9-10 weeks in April. That one was really tough, because I knew after the second ultrasound at 8 weeks but had to wait around. I feel like I have a hard time not being in control and it's always a tough lesson when you just have to let things go. Also, blighted ova really suck because you have high HCG, your uterus grows and everything, so I couldn't button my pants and was nauseous, but I knew it was a goner. So we ended up taking two cycles off -- I surprised myself with how much I didn't want to try. I was terrified of getting all wrapped up in it again, and failing. This is the first post I've written since then, I think!

After the two cycles off, I charted again and had what looked like a great cycle for me, long cycle with a long LP, but no dice. So I bit the bullet and we saw an RE. It was a little bit of a hurdle to overcome, but I'm SO glad we did! At first, we thought the options were histerosalpingogram (HSG) this cycle or clomid unmonitored from the midwife/obgyn (RE thought the HSG was required by insurance before any treatment from the RE). I went through this drama trying to make up my mind then trying to get the clomid and start it on day five (and cancel the HSG). Turns out the insurance only requires the HSG first for an IUI cycle, so I could have just started monitoring and treatment from the RE that day, but too late now! In the end, I'm 3dpo in my first Clomid cycle and this cycle will be unmonitored. Next cycle starts monitoring at the RE's office! Yay! well, you know, kinda yay...

So I was going to jump back into the forums, but I didn't know where. Infertility? After a loss? Anyway, I'm really glad to see friendly faces and am looking forward to some new BFPs!

[mamaforever]

jpack-  So sorry to hear about your blighted ovum. :(  That must have been so SO hard.  Lots of sticky baby dust to you and I hope this 2ww goes by quickly for you!

Good luck to you all TTC!  This thread was really great while I was TTC #2.  Some very supportive gals here!!!  I am 35 weeks now with our second little boy.  We had a little bit of a hard time with battling a short LP for many months, and then a m/c at 6 weeks last November.  But luckily 2 cycles later we got this special little bean.

May there be lots of BFPs in this thread soon!

[anyalily]

JPack, welcome back! I was just thinking about you. I'm glad to hear you are healing and trying again! We took time off too, to work on our marriage and get excited again.

Mamaforever, wow, your pregnancy flew by! Well, it probably doesn't seem like that for you. 

We are getting some good BDing in. I am not charting and trying to just feel blessed and excited. This is our first month back after our break and maybe it will just happen!

[FarrahLily79]

Hi guys! 

Great to hear from you all:)  Good luck in these last few weeks of your pregnancies!  So sorry to hear of your difficulties, jpack....I think we all know how you feel and have been there in one way or another...it will happen for you, I am certain.  It took us 10 months to conceive baby #2 and baby #1 was the first try as well!  Just know you are not alone!  It will definitely happen.    We also have a DD who just turned 3 in June as well...craaazy how the time flies!

I just wanted to update you all that I had my baby!  We had another little girl (Scarlett Ann) and she is perfect and already 7 weeks old!  I went into labor at 38 1/2 weeks and the labor was a BREEZE this time around.  I read a book called HYPNOBIRTHING and found it extremely effective...the labor was just soooo much easier to handle and shorter.  I pushed her out in 3 contractions...no drugs!  I felt like a million bucks afterwords :)  I really wish I had done a home birth (we live far away from the closed hospital), but it was a midwife hospital birth with no intervention so that was the next best thing...I just hated having to stay in the hospital....

Avasmama and mamaforever...we've been on this forum for  a year and I feel like it's come full circle...good luck with your labors!!  Thank you again for all your support during that TTC process...this is our last baby and we feel very lucky and blessed with our two girls...

To everyone else, I hope this gives you a little comfort...I had been trying for baby #2 for 10 months and I was so depressed, angry, frustrated...then we finally conceived in October.  Our baby was born on June 27th and my father unexpectedly and shockingly had a heart attack and passed away in his sleep 10 days later .  This baby is my angel...she has really helped me and my family through our grief and has helped to fill the void of losing my Dad.  So as angry as I was that whole time I was trying to get pregnant, I now realize that I conceived exactly when I was supposed to:)

Hang in there ladies

[gratefulstella]

Farrah that is awesome to hear that you had a great birth, I had that with my daughter and just cannot wait and until we have another baby. and I'm trying to still have hope. Right now I have some things at work that are taking up my mind space, but I guess that's a little okay because then I don't have to focus so much on trying to conceive.

[jpack]

I had to jump in even on my phone, because Anyalily, I so totally agreed with everything you said on the one thread - I had to give a because I'm so with you! (But I couldn't really interject on that thread out of the blue.) just wanted to say yes to total distraction, yes to not all that preggo-baby-excitement, and yes to a recent mild obsession to that particular guilty pleasure!

I'm in a silly situation with DH, he's betting against me that I can't hold out from testing until next Saturday (13-14 dpo). It's his birthday, and I don't really want to wait! But now I gotta, and you ladies gotta keep me honest! what do you think? First cycle on clomid and holding out on testing?! Im bad, bad at waiting! Patience is a virtue but not one of mine!

Farrah, so glad your second's birth went well! Congratulations and best of luck in those early days!

Oh, and before leaving for the weekend, I chatted with a neighbor/friend who had kinda dropped off the planet there for most of the summer. Turns out she had a miscarriage at 14 weeks, unexpectedly. My heart just broke for her- I hadn't even known about the pregnancy. I guess a good bit about struggling with infertility is feeling a little more compassionate, able to better relate with other women.

[anyalily]

Originally Posted by jpack 

I'm in a silly situation with DH, he's betting against me that I can't hold out from testing until next Saturday (13-14 dpo). It's his birthday, and I don't really want to wait! But now I gotta, and you ladies gotta keep me honest! what do you think? First cycle on clomid and holding out on testing?! Im bad, bad at waiting! Patience is a virtue but not one of mine!

JPack, how is the bet going? I will test on Saturday too. It would be 12 DPO for me, but I don't think I can hold out any longer. The obsession continues!

[jpack]

Anyalily, thanks- FAILED the bet big time- tested the minute we home Monday, but as of last night there was a very, very faint positive!! Yay!! Not holding my breath, but you know..

[anyalily]

Originally Posted by jpack 

Anyalily, thanks- FAILED the bet big time- tested the minute we home Monday, but as of last night there was a very, very faint positive!! Yay!! Not holding my breath, but you know..

Wowee zowee! That is great news! I failed too, tested on Tuesday, nothing yet. I did start to feel something like menstrual cramps for a second today. I remember with DD I thought I was going to start bleeding any minute because of teh fullness and cramping when I got my BFP, so there is still hope. I am really happy for you!

[aHikaru]

congrats jpack, i'm sending positive thoughts your way :)

Just noticed my DD (born Feb '09) is right between anyalily and jpacks LO's, seems like wanting another fell around the same time.

AFM:

NTNP after 8 months TTC, my cycles have been regular (for me) the past 3 cycles, so hoping this cycle follows suit, despite the traveling. I won't consider myself in the 2WW until 2 weeks before my longest cycle, so i still have a couple weeks to go. I'll be happy either way, for different reasons, until then it's out of my hands.

[jpack]

False alarm- tests looked promising, but then got lighter rather than darker and beta confirmed negative. Wtf?! And clomid totally magnifies symptoms. Bleh. Thanks for the support, though ladies!

[aHikaru]

Originally Posted by jpack 

False alarm- tests looked promising, but then got lighter rather than darker and beta confirmed negative. Wtf?! And clomid totally magnifies symptoms. Bleh. Thanks for the support, though ladies!

oh! :( i heard clomid symptoms mimic pregnancy symptoms... and I think I read something about false positives...

[FarrahLily79]

Sending good positive thoughts your way, jpack!!

[CA Country Girl]

Congratulations Farrahlily!  I had my second DD about the same time.  She was born on July 3rd after a fast, drug free, hospital birth with a midwife too.  I loved this thread while TTC #2.  It took us 18 months and with DD1 (6 yrs old) we were not trying at all.  Good luck to you all.  Avasmama and Mamaforever- soon soon.  I am looking forward to hearing your news.

[anyalily]

BFN and cramps today. AF is coming. I feel sad but OK. Another chance to lose some weight and start exercising again!

[mamaforever]

Anyalily-  So sorry that you feel that AF is on her way...  I hope this next cycle is successful for you!

Jpack-  ugh how frustrating that your first test showed positive, then had negatives after that.  Can clomid cause a false positive?  I hope that first test was right, but if not, sending you hugs.

Farrahlily and CACountryGirl-  Congrats to you both on your new little girls!  It doesn't seem like it has been very long since you announced your pregnancies!

[anyalily]

Yup, I am out this month. But feeling good, eating well and trying to be happy and optimistic. Maybe this month will be it!

[LivingSky]

My chart is all whacked this month, but pretty sure I O'ed yesterday or Monday (though FF thinks last Friday which would be wierd early for me). Anyways no temping for the 2WW this month for me! Hoping that will ease my stress...

[GISDiva]

I'm going a little nuts with the waiting.  To top it off, I had to have a colposcopy in the middle of my cycle to take a closer look at what the pap smear found when I got my IUD out at the same time...ugh.  And my in-laws are coming into town tomorrow, which is always a hot mess.  This weekend I'll either get my period (cranky) or get a BFP that I don't want to tell them about yet...and the timing of it all is so similar to when I got pregnant with DS, same month, they visited around the same time, I couldn't tell them why I wasn't drinking (I hadn't found out for sure then yet).  It's hard not to get a little superstitious.  And my boobs kinda hurt.  And then I feel really stupid because IT'S ONLY THE FIRST MONTH TTC.  Jeebus.

Thanks for letting me get the crazy out.  :)