I need help and encouragement, I'm going a little crazy! :(

[morganxobrooks]

Hi, there ladies! I'm going a little crazy right now. I hope you guys can keep up with this story, but I need a little advice! I just got married for the second time July 8th of this year. I was married before for about a year, and I could never get pregnant. We tried for a little over and a year, and nothing happened...well, I got pregnant right as we were seperating. I carried the baby for about eight weeks and then lost it. I was literally devistated and I never thought I'd get over it...then I met my husband Joey. I have endometriosis, and my OBGYN put me on the Lupron depot shot in April of this year...I only took two shots. The doc said it should be out of my system by mid-June and I should start a period and begin ovulating. She did a few fertility tests on me and she said I was very fertile and should have no issues. WELL - I do have an issue. I haven't had a period since, and I've been doing a ovulation predictor for the past few days..but it says on the box you have to start on day 5 of your period? I'm like, great, what if you don't have one? I'm taking it anyway. It's the first response ovulation predictor. I always had irregular periods before the lupron...I'd have a period for a month straight and then none for like five months. I'm just going crazy! My hubby has a beautiful little girl named Hailey, so we know he's fine. I feel like a failure. I see babies on TV and everywhere I go now, my heart is breaking. 

What do I do?!?!

<3 Morgan

[Jaimee]

Welcome to MDC!!    I'm so sorry you've been having a frustrating time getting your fertility back and I'm very sorry for your previous loss.  You have definitely come to the right place for support and advice.

First, there is a separate Pregnancy Loss forum that you could check out if you would like to get further support for your loss.  I know that can be really difficult.

Second, getting your fertility back after being on hormonal birth control can take way longer than a few months.  In fact, it can take upwards of a year.    What tests did she run on your to prove that you were very fertile?  OPK's are not the most reliable things for a lot of women.  Some women find they never turn up positive, others find they are positive for days on end, and yet others find that they turn up positive at random times in their cycles.  There is also confusion sometimes pinpointing the actual LH peak, especially when using the straight +/- kind.  If you would like to give them a try anyway, I would suggest starting them as soon as you notice fertile cervical fluid- creamy or eggwhite in consistency.  This indicates better than anything that your body is attempting to ovulate- likely within the next few days.  But neither OPK's nor cervical fluid (CF) observations can confirm ovulation.  To do that you would need to start taking your basal body temperature each morning.

Temping and tracking your CF will allow you to determine several things about your cycle: when you're fertile, when you ovulated, how long your luteal phase is (the time between O and AF), when to expect AF, when would be a good time to take an HPT, if you're pregnant, and if there is anything of concern happening with your cycle.  If you're interested in getting going with charting, just post for more information!

Good luck!