This pregnancy is a nightmare! *vent*

[Triniity]

Hi. 

I am so frustrated at the moment. I want to be happy, glowing, active and everything that a pregnant woman with a healthy little baby in her belly should be. And I am not. 

I am suffering the whole time. Since the 13.th week I have one UTI/or other Infection after the other. Five courses of antibiotics. The infections cause contractions which keep me in bed, since they are painful, even if they don´t do anything to the cervix (thank god!). I am constantly afraid, because how would I know if the contractions start to do something? I wouldn´t would I ?! Until it´s too late. 

Plus, my pelvis is just painful, but I cannot do anything about it (except taking painkillers for both reasons, but I don´t really want to), can´t wear the pelvis band, because it makes the contractions worse. 

So, I am sitting on my bed (legs up because of the varicosis!) and feel sorry for myself, and my kids, who are sooo good, playing on their own (mostly) but I am shortfused with them anyway, and feel tired and exhausted for doing nothing. (Might have something to do with my severe anemia - which I cannot take anything for since I feel already sick because of the antibiotics) 

My husband is at work, if I ask him to pick the kids up he brings them home around seven - I mean seven?! at night. Which is really, really late and I hate that, but sometimes I feel so bad that I just cannot get up to get them home... 

I feel sorry for myself. And my family. 

(and feel blessed for my little one who is so active and alive and everything) 

hhmmpf. 

[XanaduMama]

Oh mama! Hugs to you--no wonder you're frustrated! I guess I would encourage you to start by really trying to get to the root of your problem: the recurrent UTIs. Have you seen a naturopath? I really would. And load yourself up with probiotics, vitamin C, cranberry pills, apple cider vinegar, and anything else that can help boost your UT health and overall immunity, especially after all those antibiotics.

Have you seen a chiro for your pelvic pain? I suffered terribly with SPD in both pregnancies and my chiropractor seriously saved my life the second time around.

Hang in there! Hope you catch a break very soon

[McGucks]

I am not pregnant (DS2 is 16 months), but saw your thread under New Threads and wanted to chime in with my BTDT.  I HATED being pregnant both times.  It hurt, I was embarrassed, I had to go off my meds for anxiety/sleep, etc.  Just know that, of course, it's worth it in the end...but it's a LONG 9 months and you need whatever support you can get to make it through as happily as possible.  Your stress is the baby's stress at this point...let your DH know that!  I felt sorry for myself, too, and guilty for feeling that way.  I was also afraid, having significant marital issues, missed having family (both my parents are dead, as is my brother, and I have no family other than DH's and DS1), and was gobsmacked by hormones.  Add in insomnia, GD, and a very stressful job, and it's safe to say it was one of the worst 9 months of my life.

Fast forward to now...life is good.  Hang in there, mama.  Sending relaxing thoughts and good vibes your way!

[Triniity]

thank you for your vibes :) 

The problem with DH is, that he starts telling me that I am obviously not really good in being pregnant, like not really meant to be pregnant. He says that because he feels for me (and probably himself as well) - but I want a fourth baby after the third one! So I cannot really complain too much ( I try not to complain to him at all, keeping telling him that it´s okay, and that there are woman much worse off!) 

I just got a call from my doctor telling me that there are indeed bugs at my cervix, so I am just continuing the antibiotics. XanaduMama, how do you use vinegar for health boosting? I do all the other stuff plus nice little lactobacillus suppositories (until birth - I was told today) 

I am going to hang in there, I know what I am doing it for! 

thanks for the encouragement.