Last week I find out, as a total shocker, that I am pregnant. Freak out. Then I get blood work done 3 days apart at GP and she says wow, your hcg levels are really high, let's sono to check for twins (also been having a lot of discomfort compared to first 3). So then I start thinking about twins. Go for sono today, tech comes back out and says I need to go right to my Dr to discuss results. Panic. Drive to Dr. She says they don't see anything in sono, deems it an ectopic pregnancy, and due to the fact we have to leave tomorrow for an 8 day out of state hospital stay with our 2 youngest, she is going to call my OB and see if she wants to start a chemical termination before I go. So for a few days I convinced myself that my world would survive another child. THen I convinced myself that twins would not be the end of the world. THEN today I spent 4 hours coming to terms with the fact there would be no baby. SO then the Dr calls back and says the OB says that at 14dpo (today) that it is normal not to see anything, and usually they do not until hcg hits 1500, which mine has not, and most likely this is a viable pregnancy. So here I am, getting used to being okay being pregnant again.
My husband is like...relax, what is meant to be will be, and I just want to kick him in the teeth at his Zen-ness, lol.