Let me start by saying, I have already had vbacs. I love vbacs and know they are lower risk than repeat csects. I have always had confidence going in to my vbacs. I have given up on vbacs in the past over stupid things, like change of policy....which was dumb I went along with it. But, regardless, I am planning my 4th vbac with this baby after multiple C's.
Anyway, things are different this time. I do not feel the confidence. I don't know what is wrong with me. I even have bad dreams about it. The confidence and all I used to feel, it is just not there. I am wondering if I should just have a csect and be done with it. I never wanted another csect, but I am so worried. I could understand being nervous about a vbac if one has never had one..but this would be my 4th. What is wrong with me?