Hello everyone. This is funny. So I didn't even realize that I had replies to my post until I figured it out yday. I am not tech savvy in the slightest.
Once I realized, I was just scrolling through responses with tears welling up in my eyes. It is so nice to hear that so many people can relate to where I am coming from. I definitely felt welcomed.
Desert Sunsets, Lisedea, Ad Astra: Thank you specifically for supporting the idea of setting boundaries with my friend (more like an acquaintance now) who sprung her pregnancy on me after she had been intentionally hiding that she was even trying. There is a huge messy back story to this friendship, and right now I do want to be focused on doing what is best for me, my DP and my future offspring: I don't want certain negative energy around. It is interesting how this TTC process has not only showed me that I could live w/o caffeine (most of the time), and my anti-depressants but also that the basics (sleep, nutrition, solid kind friendships) is fundamental for good living.
Brite, Kgubransen, Carmen, Yeledov: thank you for the welcome and for the advice. I haven't liked the fact that my LP is only 10 days long yet my RE didn't think it was a big deal, particularly bc my progestrone numbers were ok when they were tested. Still I'm with you guys, I didn't like it so I advocated for myself and viola next cycle I will be taking progestin suppositories. Anyone have any thoughts about this? Carmen, I haven't heard about B6. I will look into it.
Desert: trying 3 vials? If my DP and I had the resources I would try 5-6x in a cycle even though I know that it only needs one try. Good luck.
Brite: awh.... The pain of AF. I am envious now of remembering when getting my period was merely a slight annoyance. I know a friend who told me that she knew someone who had a specific intentional self care ritual she did every time she got her period when she was TTC. I hope you give yourself permission to have your intense range of feelings (there typically intense for me) and do something special for yourself..that you may not typically do at any other time. My special ritual involves sweats, chocolate and the t.v. and a box of kleenex. I know its is easy to get frustrated with the process but the truth is it just didn't happen this month AND there is no evidence that it won't happen next month. It is what it is. Typically I am able to start being more positive and rational again about the process maybe by day 3 of my period. So peace and good thoughts to you.
KSDoulaMama: thank you for the download link. I've been listening to alot of BelleRuth Naperstek lately. Her guided imagery for fertility is so touching and poignant. Best of all her voice is so soothing, I always fall asleep before the track is over.
Handerson: I too second the idea of not obsessing over temps. I did it myself for the first 8-9mths of ttc and then I realized that I had a pretty typical bi-phasic presense with my temps between FP and LP and figured that my temps didn't mean much after a while besides knowing that it would stress me out particularly in the days leading up to AF. I have the most helpful thing for me at this point is making sure I use a digital OPK test that shows the definitive smiley face or no face so I know definitely when the beginning window for ovulation occurs.
If anyone has any tricks that work for them to make the TTC process easier, I would love to hear them.
Mumquest: how exciting! congratulations!