Fall IVF Thread: Let's hear it for the BFPs! - Page 24

[auraleigh]

renavoo!!  i have every finger and toe crossed.  sounds like those embryos defrosted perfectly and to have two beautiful blasts to transfer!!! i'm envious! make sure you get the rest you need, this is going to be great!

belly, can't wait to hear how the lining check went!  i am sure the flu shot was fine, it will keep you healthy this flu season.  thinking great thoughts for you!

blue, packing can wait!  are you excited?  it's so close now, i'm sure you're more than ready to take the next steps.   ps, the thought of abby on a treadmill makes me giggle.  but i can't think of a better way to get out some excess energy.

kewpie, thanks for the info.  i can't tell if i'm being a hypochondriac or if it's actually possible that i could have it?  i just have so many other symptoms (other than the cysts) that i have to wonder? 

afm, thanks for the affirmations ladies! at my clinic i am seen by a whole group of doctors, all of whom I like and are very sweet and sympathetic.  the one who i am meeting with tuesday is also the one we first met with at our orientation.  she's sort of the head RE of the group.  she's very professional and a bit stiff, but i think she's nice and i hope that i can get beyond my intimidation and have a real talk with her.  i suspect a lot of women don't ask about numbers, because the nurses always seemed surprised when i want to know my levels, so i am curious as well if my dr is going to be open about my numbers and hormone levels, etc.

 i am feeling slightly better (only cried twice today!) and i have a  really fun weekend ahead of me.  i'm headed to momofuku noodle bar (amazing restaurant in nyc) for their chicken dinner (took eight weeks to get the reservation!) and it should be a foodie adventure.  we're crashing at my sister's apartment in brooklyn for the night and then going to a family friend's surprise bday party the next day.  i can't imagine that momofuku fried chicken dinner is going to be weight watchers friendly, but i suppose i can save all my points for that meal.  heheh

[TenzinsMama]

Renavoo, YAY for an awesome sounding transfer!  I hope you get some good sleep tonight, and that those 2 embies are busying themselves by finding a nice cozy spot to sink into and make it their home for the next 9 months!  Now the waiting begins... I hope it passes by quickly for you and you get your bfp!

Blue, I know what you mean about having a dog who is a bed hog... ha ha.  They help to keep you nice and warm though, heh.  Although I have to say, I had to kick mine off my bed once my DH moved in... We only have a queen bed...

Belly, YAY for a great lining!  Let the good news continue to roll in to you!

Kewpie, ugh to coming down with something.  I hope that you aren't bothered with it for too long.

Silver, I hope your surgery goes well when the time comes.  Good thing they can do these things in the least-invasive way as much as possible.

AFM, acupuncture was cut short-- the building is being expanded, and there was a power outage when some power line was hit by some machinery, so it was lights out... evacuation.  I was about 40 minutes into the hour-long session, so there was no charge for the visit.  So, a freebie, of sorts.  Blue, my DH works a 4 day work-week, he's off Fridays, so he has DS.

See you all tomorrow!

[renavoo]

HI everyone,

Belly, YAAAAH! I know you were worried about the lining but a lining of 11mm!! That's amazing! I'm sooo optimistic for you this round! The RE really does seem to be on top of things. I wonder why you have to wait another 2 weeks? I know you'd have to take the progesterone for another week or so but two weeks seems to be a while. haha although maybe it's because I'm just impatient for you. I hope the 2 weeks fly!!!

Kewpie, I hope you're not getting sick :o( I know being pregnant makes you more susceptible to getting sick but I was hoping that you wouldn't face any more medical challenges!! If you do get sick then I hope it's a minor illness and you feel better soon.

Aura, I always forget that you're relatively near me! I went to Peach, which is a Momofuku in the east village too. I hear that the roast pork bun gets rave reviews. I will admit that I didn't like it when I had it because they use really fatty meat but I know that I have multiple friends who could not say enough about it! I really hope that you get to have a frank discussion with your RE. Considering how much we pay and how much of our heart and soul goes into each cycle, I think that they should be completely comfortable answering any questions. I'm with Blue...I definitely encourage writing the questions down. haha I ended up bringing my ipad to one of my consults with questions so I really looked like a geek. But I liked that I was sure I had all the questions answered.

Tenzin, YAH to free acupuncture!! haha the way I look at it, the initial sticks are the most important thing anyway right? I got a session before and after the transfer and seriously...8 needles, 30-40 minutes of lying there and $100 gone, per session. What a way to make money! oh and the acupuncturist was having a family crisis so she cut the first session a little short and ran out. She came back a little late (which is fine because I just laid on the table, which was beautifully warm and thought good thoughts :o) But then after she did the first 4 sticks, she got a phone call, which she just had to take. sigh. oh well, i wanted to get acupuncture because I didn't want any regrets, although I'm not sure that it'll help!!

Blue and Tenzin, funny about the dogs being a bed hug!! haha I feel like we give our pets such leeway! My dog before used to also hog my twin bed (when I lived at home with my mom) but I didn't care because I loved him so much. hehe I think DH wouldn't think so much of it now!! I love hearing stories about Abby though, Blue! It's like she's growing up on the thread!!

[BellyBean]

It's a super busy day here, so I can't write much, but I did see this on facebook and thought I would share it.  I really hope this doesn't cause anyone additional pain, I thought it was touching there was a day remembering those who we loved so deeply and loss.  I will remove my post if you would like.

Saturday (Oct.15) is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. Many will light a candle in honor of their lost baby. This is the poem from the Light of My Heart candle offered in the Healing Hearts Baby Loss Comfort line, “I light this candle in celebration, For all I know you would have been. I look into the light, feel the brightness, Of your spirit and the spark touches my heart. I am filled with the scent, a tangible reminder, Of the depth of my love for you. As I extinguish the flame, the smoke rises, Giving flight to some small part of my pain. Your precious light will remain burning, In my heart forever more. “

[TenzinsMama]

I think it's a beautiful poem.  I also found a very touching video on the Up, Down and Natural blog that I follow, the one I'm referring to is the one that is for Casey Shay.

[blueyezz4]

Renavoo - you are on your way home today or tomorrow.  Hope you are laying low.  Just the first day and the next of bedrest right?  I hate that part.

Kewpie - how are you? I hope you aren't getting the flu or anything.  Keep us posted!!

Belly - don't remove your post.  That is a beautiful poem and we always need to remember our little angels!!!  So excited that your lining is so good.  Is there a number where they don't won't your lining to get too thick kinda like i know they don't want it too thin but do they worry about it being too thick?  I don't know, that is why i asked.  If not then i'm sure there is nothing to worry about for another 2 wks.  Kinda weird though that you wouldn't have it sooner though.  Who knows, i'm sure your new RE knows what he is doing so you just have to trust him i guess.  Actually, I have a feeling that my ER and ET (2 day transfer) will probably be like Oct 29th or so.  So we will probably be in the TWW together.  Yeah for a cycle buddy!!!!!

Tenzi - bummer about your acupuncture being cut short but at least it was free 40 mins... can't beat that!!!! 

Aura - love that you have such a fun weekend coming your way!  I hope it is a good distraction for you to relax and live it up a little. Enjoy!!!

Silver - do you have a date for your surgery yet?  Good luck to you!!!  I forget if you ever told us what happened with that appt you had to go in and see the Dr or whoever it was that called you and wanted to have you come in to talk to them about all that was going on with that confusion w/ the frozen sperm.  Refresh my memory.... sorry!!!

AFM - I just keep putting more things on a list to remember haven't really packed any more yet.  For sure I will spend most of tomorrow doing it.  Need so much b/c of the pup - lg. metal crate, 2 baby gates, her bin of food, all her toys, leashes & collars, treats and the list goes on.  I have to make sure to bring all my meds with me, clothes for 2 wks, my computer and all that fun stuff so i don't lose touch with all of you ladies... oh and food.  I want to bring all my breakfast and lunch stuff and some stuff for dinner too b/c I don't want "the aunt" to feel like she has to cook for me and I'd rather cook for her some since she is being so nice and letting Ab & I stay there with her.  My DH always makes fun of me b/c i always start packing early like really early and he always packs like an hr before we go and then he forgets things and I always tease him and say "if you would have packed earlier like me you wouldn't have forgotten it".  LOL

[Keria]

Rena tons of sticky vibes grow little ones grow!

belly Awesome news on your lining hopefully thing will continue to go perfect and you will get your BFP this cycle!

Blue That cannot be Abby, she is so dark, Will you have internet at your aunts I hope you can keep us updated. I'm like your DH with the packing and yes I always forget something and DH makes fun of me.

AFM Not a lot going on,  little ones continue to grow, they seem to be little night owls. They get really active around 9 pm and wake me up several times at night with their kicks and punches. We  purhcased the cribs. That was a big step for me. In my crazy head I'm still scared that something may happen and we may not hold our little ones in feb but I'm trying to get away from those feelings and try to remain positive.

[renavoo]

Keria, i know there is always that fear of loss but I, for one, can't wait to see pictures of your beautiful babies! Things are going to be fine...i know it! And i know it must be both wonderful and yet exhausting that you feel their kicks and that they are so active! They are just reminding you that they can't wait to be held by you!

Blue, all men seem to have the "wait until the last minute gene"! Hah it is lucky that our DHs have us to take care of things. Hehe. I was reading your post and thinking that you are o prepared to have a child! I hear that with children, epecially babies, you end up bringing EVERYTHING whenever you just have o go out for anything!

Belly, i got teary when i read the poem. I never experienced the loss but i can imagine that if i did, i would feel the way the poet did. It was beautiful and i am happy you shared it.

Tenzin, how are you feeling? Did your friend come around? Sending you happy vibes!

AFM, day 1.5 after transfer. Haha nothing doing here. Dealing with really bad allergies so every time i sneeze or have to blow my nose, i cringe. But i can't help it! Thanks for all the well wishes. We have named our embies Halo and Angel this time. Halo because it was an expanded blastocyst and looked like it was surrounded by a halo. Angel because it went with Halo. Haha and it'll be our angel if it makes it. I get so attached to the little embies by naming them, which may make it harder if i get a bfn but we love the process of coming up with the names, it gives DH and I a little empowerment! Beta is not until 10/27...they wait 13 days post transfer, even though blasts were transferred. I dont get it but oh well...considering POAS on sunday, 10/23, i believe. That would make it 9 days post transfer which would technically be day 14 post retrieval because they are 5/6 day blasts. What do you ladies think?

[TenzinsMama]

Keria, things are sounding good!  Is your profile pic from 18 week u/s? 

Renavoo, is it only 1.5 days gone by?  ha ha I'm getting impatient for you!  I am so hopeful for you, I hope Angel and Halo are doing super well and you get a nice happy surprise when the time comes.  I don't know what I would do if I were you... I thought about POAS before beta myself, but I never came up with a descision about which way I would go.  Thanks for asking me about my friend.  I really appreciate how WTH'ish you got about the situation, because I really feel ticked and it validated how I was feeling.  I wasn't putting much energy into it for a couple of days, but I'm kind of stirred up about things now, so it's funny you should ask... *L* did this 24 hour video gaming marathon beginning yesterday to raise money for a charity, and she was on FB frequently to give updates, and because it was that day of pregnancy and infant loss awareness, I posted a beautiful video I had come across that honored all the mothers and babies who have experienced it... I was remembering our lost babies and knowing that so many on here have gone through it, too... I am hoping that *L* knows I was thinking of her when I put that up, not just myself... Anyway, I noticed her last FB status indicating she was done the marathon; I decided to post a comment-- "Good job!".  That's all I can say right now.  I mean it, but normally I would have posted a lot more, or texted her, or like last year--actually gone to cheer her on.  .  I'm gently reaching out to her, and it's almost like I'm giving her a 'bump', and I'm hoping she will realize that it's been 2 weeks since we last spoke.  I guess I'll just wait and see when and how she responds.  Oh... and thanks a ton for the happy vibes you sent me... As Ellen says, "Right back atcha!"

[auraleigh]

sorry to hear you are sick renavoo! hopefully you can just take it easy and relax.  momofuku noodle bar was outrageous.  I can only speak for the chicken dinner, but it was a chicken extravaganza. 1/2 southern fried and 1/2 korean style.  four of us went and we had enough chicken left over so that we all had chicken leftovers for dinner tonight. we just couldn't figure out how they keep the chicken SO moist!  i'd like to go back and order off the menu, and i highly recommend their lychee shoju slushies after you have your baby!  we had a great night out, which continued with a solid five hours of vodka tonics, and wound up back in brooklyn for the end of the night.  then gobo for a surprise birthday party lunch.  i forget how spoiled we get eating in nyc, because now that i live in nj the memorable meals are few and far between.  i miss cheap thai, tapas, mexican... and i miss all my favorite bars! my food is better than most of the local places around here, so we cook at home more often than not now.  probably healthier and cheaper, but not as fun!

blue, hope the rest of the packing goes smoothly! you sound really prepared, which is great.  one less thing to worry about!

keria, love the photo! i'm so glad the babies are so active, enjoy the time you are having.  they will be here before you know it.

belly, thanks for sharing the poem, i think it will be a comfort for many people.

tenzin, how are you feeling?  did you enjoy your acupuncture, even though it was short?

afm, just hungover and exhausted and wishing i didn't have work in the morning.  but feeling relaxed and less sad.  

[TenzinsMama]

aura, I'm so happy to hear that you had so much fun!  My stomach is grumbling right now, thinking of all that yummy food.  Ha ha, hopefully you feel better once the morning rolls around and you have to go to work.  Ah, I had so much fun when I went to NYC a few years ago, I ended up dancing and drinking the night away more than a couple times when I was there.  Of the few American cities I've visited, it's definitely my favorite!  I'm really so glad that you are more relaxed and less sad, and I hope that the brighter days find their way to you more and more.  I'm feeling like I need more relaxation, so I'm going to try and book a massage or pedicure soon.  My short acupuncture session was good, but it definitely could have been better if I could shut my brain off in a quicker amount of time.  When my brain is in overdrive at the start of the session, sometimes I don't zone out until towards the end-- and part of the problem is that I'm trying to shut it down, which makes it less likely to happen because then I'm actively trying to relax... I don't do well at mediatation, either, because I can't seem to shut my brain off.

[blueyezz4]

Just a quick one here.... I'll do more personals later, hopefully tonight after we get there.

I have my annual pap appt this morning and then the pup and I are hoping to get on the road by 1pm today.  Looks like the weather is going to nice for driving so that is helpful.  Just need to take the puppy dog for a quick walk this morning and then finish packing.  I'll have my computer so I'll be in touch w/ more personals later.    Hope everyone has a good Monday!!!

[BellyBean]

Blue, yay, so excited for you to leave and be so close!!!!  Can't wait for the updates when you start monitoring!  Have a safe trip up with the pup :)

Renavoo, how are you doing?  Ugh that's a long time till beta!  My old clinic did it 9dp5dt (14dpo) with FET's, I think my new clinic would too, but that falls on a Sunday so I will be 10dp5dt...and I don't think I'll be able to wait.  The BFN's caused a lot of pain last time, so think I'll wait till Sunday.  Personally, I think you can get a pretty accurate result by 12dpo, I know there are lots of later BFPs, but I think overall with a large sample size, 12dpo is far enough along.  I got my BFP with DD at 5dp5dt. (My old clinic did betas at 7dp5dt with fresh cycles)

Aura, sounds like a fabulous time!!!!  So jealous!  Hopefully you feel better today...whenever I go out, I forget I am not young and will be hungover the next day :)  Remember when it didn't take a whole day to recover :)

Tenzi, bummer about the accupuncture, but atleast you didn't have to pay!!   When is your u/s again?

Keira, love the profile picture!!!  I think we bought our crib right around 20 weeks too!  I can't wait to see pictures of your little ones when they are born :)

Hello to everyone else!

AFM, not much going on here.  Just trying to "patiently" wait for my trasfer next Friday.  It's not working so well right now :) but luckily I have TONS of stuff I need to get done before then, so I should be busy atleast :)

[MOMTOALEXIS]

Renavoo-fingers crossed for you.

Blue- Have a safe trip my friend, thinking of you always.

[Silverbird]

Blue - No I don't get to use DH's sperm.  There really quite right his consent form is hwat counts and I don't want to break my heart fighting it.  Time to surf the web looking for sperm!

[Kewpie80]

Keria - I LOVE your new picture!  I've got to wait till about thanksgiving before I get to do our 3-d u/s.  I can hardly wait!  

renavoo - I love your names for your embies!  I'm hoping SO hard for you!

blue - I hope you made it safely!!

silver - Good luck to you in finding the perfect donor!  

AFM - Still feeling really cruddy.  It's just a cold, but it's nasty one.  At least I'm already stuck in bed.  It kinda makes it easier to stay laying down when you don't feel like moving.  DH's b-day was yesterday and I felt so bad cause I couldn't make him a pie or do anything really.  I told him I'll make it up to him after I'm allowed to move around again after thanksgiving.  He's really excited about his gift and at least I could do that much.  I got him a 1 yr membership to a domestic microbrew club.  So, he'll be getting 4 different types of beers from all over the US every month. 

[TenzinsMama]

Kewpie, what an awesome gift!  I haven't heard of anything like that before, I should check it out to see if something like that is available in my neck of the woods.  I'm glad it's just a cold that you have to fight, but it sucks nonetheless.  Hopefully it is very short-lived.  When is your next appointment and u/s?

Blue, you may be traveling still right about now... glad that you have nice weather, and I look forward to an hearing how the drive went with Abby.  Pretty soon you all your stuff will be underway-- yay!

Belly, good thing you have lots of stuff planned out to pass the time away until your transfer.  I hope a lot of it is fun stuff, and not too much work or to-do stuff!  About my u/s, it's scheduled for the morning of October 28th.  I'm totally doing a countdown at least a couple of times a day, and, I even counted out my prometrium balls because I know that the more they go down in the container it means I'm that much closer to the day-- that rx runs out the morning of.  I'm nervous and excited all at the same time. (Of course, I'll have to get a refill of it, because I've got to be on it and the estrace until November 13th... and the prometrium just happens to be the more expensive of the two.  It's surpisingly so much more.) 

Renavoo, what about you-- do you have lots of stuff to keep your mind off things when you want it to be?  Did you decide if/when you are going to POAS?  I think you might have said when you were thinking of it a few threads ago?

Hi to everyone else!

[Kewpie80]

tenzins - My next appt is in about a week and half and I'll have another growth scan then. They've been doing those about every 2-3 weeks.  The last scan I had was just over a week ago and the babies were 1.5 pounds each and 13 inches long.

[Keria]

Kewpie I hope you feel better soon, I can't imagine having a cold on top of everything else. I'm glad the bedrest is doing it's job.

Rena I hope the rest of your TWW flies, I think at 9 days post transfer you should get a clear as a day BFP so let us know if you POAS.

Tenzin have you had an u/s yet?

Belly I can't believe you are so close to your transfer already. Hoping the last few days go really fast for you.

My new pic is our little girl she was 19w I love that pic of her makes me want to tickle her belly. My next u/s is in november.  I'm not complaining now that I can feel them move I'm so much more relaxed that I don;t need to see them all the time.

[prayinghard]

Hello All,

     I hope that you don't mind me being part of your chats??!!  I have been lurking around for a while.  It has taken me a long time to read back and try and get an idea of everyone's story.  It is amazing how much all of you have been through.  I think that it is wonderful that you have all stuck together.  I have tried getting involved with other threads before I found yours, but it seems like no one stays around that long and then...everyone is gone.  I am desperate to find a group of ladies who understand and can empathize.  And a group that actually reads each others posts and try to offer answers and advice instead of just venting.  Not that we don't all need a little time to just vent, right? 

     I guess to start off, I will tell you all a little about my journey.  After TCC for 1.5 years, my DH and I went to see an RE.  After months of tests and consultations, and money out the door, we did IUI in October 2009.  We were so blessed that the first IUI, with only one follie, we got pregnant.  Nine months later, our beautiful son was born.

     After having him, we both got greedy and decided we wanted another.  So, three months after our son was born, we started trying again.  No luck.  We went back to the same RE this spring.  Unfortunately, things are not happening as with DS.  We got so spoiled with him.  We have done 3 IUI's now, using menopur, HCG, and progesterone suppositories, all of which have failed.  I really thought the last one would be it...3 follies, 2 on one side and 1 on the other.  My RE even said at the time of IUI "it doesn't get better than that".  But, 4 days early, even with progesterone suppositories, AF arrived.  I was devastated.  We were on vacation when it happened and did not get back until day 7 on my cycle, so we had to sit this month out.

     Now I have to make the HUGE decision..anothere IUI or IVF?  I need help!  There are so many things to consider!  First, my RE will do blood work to see if IVF is even an option (I have a high FSH).  The stress on my body worries me.  I am VERY sensitive to the meds, even at the lower IUI doses.  Will I ever be able to handle everything required for IVF?  Can I take care of my son and do IVF?  Can I afford IVF?  I would so love to hear any and all of your opinions.  Help me to know what I should do?  What else to consider....  And what if this doesn't work????  I am about to lose it here!

     I promise that this will be my very last entry that is just about me!  I have read all of your posts and can not wait to get to know you all better.  However, after reading all of your entries, I kinda feel like I know you already.  I will include all of you in my prayers...  wishing you all success with your pregnancies and BFP journey!