shesaidboom - My husband was about 45 minutes late for our first appointment at the place we're currently at - they just took my medical history first. He actually got there just as we'd finished mine. Since he works 2 hours away, I've usually gone by myself.. but today I had to make an appointment that I'm pretty sure we both need to be there for, and that was a hassle! He also isn't good for *anything* before about 10 or 11 am, so that was another problem. Luckily, he can sometimes work from home, so that makes it easier, but yeah, it's a pain in the neck!
monkeyscience - that sounds like a rough day! I just had one moment today when I was headed out to call the fertility people and this woman at work was walking in with her new baby.. She's kind of always smug + acts like she knows everything about everything (and she doesn't..), so that was irritating. It's just a little twinge of jealousy when people that I think are cool get kids.. but when it's people that I think are awful people, there's a "But,...how come she deserves that and I don't!?!?!" which is ridiculous, I know, but it's how I feel. And yes, I always feel like I'm in a race - I always wanted kids *early* for crying out loud! And I feel like I'm losing any way I look at it... I don't make enough money to do the things I want (which aren't much - retirement, emergency fund, car fund...we haven't taken a real vacation in a decade), I'm not doing work that I feel really matters, I don't have kids, I don't even own a house, or even a decent car!
As for the embryos... I think I'd care what the ex-wife would have thought, probably even if I thought she was an awful person. If I thought that both of them would like to see their child/ren born (if they could), then I would really want to do it. If not, I probably wouldn't. But I have kind of a weird morality about relationships...
IVF - I really, honestly never thought we'd actually get there. But the last time I saw my doctor, she said "Well, we certainly could still do IVF". I can't even imagine finding the money for IVF.
(I'm also still not able to process/talk about that visit (the failed IUI). I made an appointment with their counselor, but I didn't get good vibes off the phone call. And it's not until the 22nd.)
Also, all of my co-workers got to hear me yell at the pharmacy Monday morning - I spent all weekend fighting with DH about fertility stuff, and then I got in to an email that they'd shipped the next month's letrozole and the endometrin - I'd asked them to hold both perscriptions. The letrozole is no big deal - I'm likely to use it, and it's just a $20 co-pay (I'd thought it was less, before..) even if I don't. The Endometrin, however, is $125 out of pocket, and I've been trying to get that perscription cancelled ever since I found out how much it cost! (I think the doctor just gave me the script because I said I was nervous about my 12 day luteal phase - but really, that *should* be long enough! (and I'll skip the rant about how that shows that free market health care is a myth)) I really got mad when they insisted that I'd mailed that one in separately, which is why they hadn't held it - I never even saw it! Also, I confirmed the medication names with the woman that I spoke with about holding them - not that she offered them, I had to ask about it.
I'm usually the most patient person ever, but life is really pushing me to my limits lately! At this rate, I worry that I'm going to use my lifetime supply of patience up before we even have kids!
..and more seriously, when do you guys usually order the drugs? I guess I have to order them (even the ovidrel) before CD1.. probably CD 21ish of the previous cycle? I don't know what we're doing now, and we don't have the next appointment until the 26th, which will be about CD 7 or 8, so I figured that we aren't doing anything next cycle, anyway.
Sorry that I'm not more cheerful.. I'm blaming it on PMS with nearly 0% chance of baby this month...