Dingos sprinting through September - Page 21

[sparkletruck]

Originally Posted by 1jooj 

Plady, fwiw, the privilege, the medical care and the technologies saved my life, twice, in two very different ways at two very different times. God is infinitely forgiving and knows your heart. The question seems always to be, how forgiving are we?

My love to the finest women on the Web. 

So beautifully and perfectly said

With the repeating theme of self-forgiveness here lately, I keep thinking 'how can THESE incredible women be so hard on themselves'! I admire you all so much

[kitteh]

UGH I am so frustrated. I just wrote out a fairly long, detailed race report for my FIRST RACE EVER but then I made the mistake of attempting to attach some pictures which I guess I don't have permission to do yet? Probably due to my low post-count. Anyhow, the pop-up box froze the screen and wouldn't disappear even when I clicked on "cancel" or "submit" so I had to refresh the screen and lost the whole thing. @#$!

Anyhow, http://connect.garmin.com/splits/118660957

I'll be back later to do the race report all over again. Later. In the meantime, I just wanted to say to Plady that I feel for you and am thinking of you. I also used to consider myself the Pro-Choice, but for Other People type of person and I really thought I'd never be in the position to make that choice myself, until I suddenly WAS, about 7 years ago. And then I was so thankful that I had the right to make the decision that was right for myself at that point in my life. If I hadn't, I am sure that my life would look very different right now--I probably wouldn't have finished college--and everything would have been much more difficult. Like you, I found out that I was pregnant very early on and had lots of time to weigh both sides and make my decision. And although one of those options does become more difficult to chose as the weeks pass by, I think it is still easier than not finding out til later in the pregnancy and then having to make a rush decision. Or at least, that's how it was for me. I hope that you have the time you need to come to the right decision for yourself and your family, and that you find peace and acceptance in whatever choice you make.

[zubeldia]

hi all, I have been missing in action, I know, but August was such a terrible month and September hasn't been much better. Luckily I recovered from the D and C quickly, and in my first proper cycle post d and c I am now pregnant again. Just 5 weeks. I am a nervous wreck and have officially descended into crazy a few times already.

I'll be a better dingo in October.

I'm just catching up with everyone but in the meantime if you could send good vibes my way then I would gladly accept them. My first hCG result came back and it looked good (11 dpo it was 53 and at 14dpo it had jumped to 377), but of course I am dreading the scans and a repeat of the ordeal this summer.

Plady, thinking of you so much.

[kitteh]

wOw what a rollercoaster you've been on these last few months, zub! Sending stay-put vibes to your belly and hoping you get the baby you're meant to have.

[MelW]

Zub, congratulations, and wishing you a smooth pregnancy. Lots of healthy baby and gentle first trimester vibes headed your way.

[1jooj]

Zub! Truly hoping for the best this time around.

Way to go on your first race ever, kitteh! Nice splits, even with that hill in the middle! 

Nick, really. The 20-miler. Awesome!

I'm struggling. I worked 4 hours on the writing yesterday, which is a great sitting. Today I have a lunch date and I told the tutor to come in the evening, but have not heard back from her. Kids are melting down already and it's 5:30AM. Dh called to say he might have to stay an extra 10 days (!) in KSA. I'm starting to lose my mind about little things, like the fact that the water runs hot from the tap, that it's still in the 90s when I go out to run, just everything. I'm tired. I want my kids to be relaxed and happy, and I want to be relaxed at the least. I got a stupid SMS saying I'm supposed to drive to a post office that I've never been to and pick up an ID card, and the whole ID card program here is just a stupid revenue-generating farce. It's not even accepted as ID in most places. I don't feel like exercising and just want to climb back into bed when the kids get on the bus, but I know that can't end well, so I guess I'm saving that for later in the week. We now have three cats and the little one is not very nice to the big ones, causing some anxiety in the house. 

I will go out for a run when kids are on the bus, and I'm sure the lunch date will cheer me up. And it's possible dh could come home this week. I'm just overwhelmed today.

[LaLaLaLa]

Zub!  Great news!  I'm sorry you're a nervous wreck and this pregnancy probably won't be the gentle Earth-mama go-with-the-flow type of pregnancy that women who have never suffered a loss get to have.  I hope you won't feel too stressed out and that you will, at some point, be able to settle into enjoying the experience.  I'm wishing you all the best and hoping everything goes perfectly this time around.

Plady--I'm still here, still thinking of you and supporting whatever choice you make.  I suppose an advantage of being an atheist as I am is that I don't ever have to consider what any sort of God or Goddess would think of my decisions.  If I did believe in a God, though, I'd believe in one who supported me in the decisions that felt right to me, instead of getting all judgey all the time.  That's a God I can get behind.

No running this weekend, which is good for my health.  I'm feeling almost all better from the cold I'd been dealing with last week.  Hooray!  Today I spent the entire day with my mom, helping her to get my grandmother's stuff into an assisted living place.  The last couple of years have been rough on my mom, as HER mom deteriorated into delusions and paranoia and general nastiness.  My grandmother hated my dad for awhile, and thought he was plotting against her, then she was constantly mad at my mom for trying to run her life.... finally my mom got her to a doctor who sent her to a neurologist, who said that she's much worse cognitively than we even realized.  In a rare moment of positivity, my grandmother agreed last week to move into the assisted living place we had been trying to talk her into for nearly a year.  Yay!

I wish I could move into this place myself.  Gorgeous little apartment with new carpet and new paint, cleaning and laundry service, a page-long list of activities every day, dining room with linen tablecloths where today they were serving ribeye steak for lunch.... sign me up!

After such a long time watching my mom having to deal with this all alone, it was nice to finally be able to pitch in and do something concrete and helpful.  It will be nice when someone else takes over hassling my grandmother about what she's eating and whether she's taken her medication, and someone else is telling her she can't drive, and someone is reminding her that my parents have dancing lessons every Friday night so she doesn't need to be scared when they don't answer their phone.

Maybe tomorrow I'll run.  My half-marathon is looming on my calendar, just a couple of weeks away.  Eek!

[JenLove]

Plady ~ Hoping to get time to DM you tomorrow.  Still sending lots of 

Zub ~ Congrats!!  I hope your mind will be at ease soon and the rest of the pregnancy will go smooth for you and your family. 

We did one small move to the farm today, but we'll move the rest after the baby arrives.  I am so lucky to have so much help here or most of this stuff wouldn't happen.  I can't believe baby boy could arrive any day.....

[tjsmama]

Emerging briefly to pop my head in. Still lots of for plady and for zub.

I am very, very tired right now. Not looking forward to three more nights before a break, but I'll survive. I really do like it, so that's a good thing. Last night was tough, just because my preceptor and I were both SO tired. She's 17 weeks pregnant, so even though she's used to it, she's struggling a little, and I'm just plain tired. We got floated into the NICU last night, which was pretty cool. They give the nurses who float in pretty easy patient assignments (i.e. feeder/grower babies) but it was still a good learning experience. We had two babies, both 32 weekers. I got to learn how to place a oral-gastric tube for feeding and actually got pretty good at it, with feedings every 3 hours for both of them. Both babies are just starting to learn how to nipple feed, and the one had done three nipple feeds in a row (including one at mom's breast), so she was just plain exhausted. I have to say, the one kid's mom is a rockstar with the pump....he had SO much breastmilk stored up, it was awesome! So, we really didn't have a lot to do beside feed babies and change diapers, so it was a little slow.

Friday night was CRAZY. We were the admit nurse for the nursery, and we cleared the labor and delivery board! We had seven deliveries (I think) between 7p and 1a! There were two c-sections delivering at the exact same time when we came on shift so we got thrown right into the fire, headed from there right into a vaginal delivery and then right back to another c-section. That poor kid had the biggest conehead I have ever seen in my life...mom had pushed for 2 1/2 hours with no luck. We had a short break after that one until the last mom on the labor deck delivered at 5 am. It was awesome. I got to be in on four deliveries, the same amount I saw in my whole OB rotation combined! The one kid was 9 1/2 pounds...holy baby. That girl just kept coming and coming and coming. I swear, she came out as a three month old.

Meanwhile, I did NOT hike with my child as planned this afternoon, but instead took a little nap and we hung out at home instead. A couple of papers written later, and I think it's time for bed. Again.

[JayGee]

Who is ready for a Shiny New Thread???!!!

Any why is that http showing up on my link?  It's not there when I hit Edit?  Oh well.....