I woke up this morning feeling so desperate aboout our sleep situation.
Our 9 month old wakes about 6-7 times a night (or every 1-2 hours) since he was about 5 months. We've tried suggestions from "No Cry Sleep Solution" but they have had no impact.
During the last week he has had a cold and has had trouble going to sleep at night. Last night he was awake from 2-4 am and would not go to sleep, no matter how much rocking or nursing.
I'm getting to the point where I feel so angry and resentful. I know it's not his fault, but when my son woke up this morning I did not feel like smiling or cuddling him. He is tugging on my leg now and I just have nothing to give him. I spend the whole day making sure he naps,even though he only naps for 30 minutes at a time. Then I spend all evening putting him to sleep. My husband and I barely make it through dinner and he has already woken up a couple of times. Then I spend all nighttime getting him back to sleep.
I try very hard not to feel resentful towards my son, but I worry that this experience will affect my long term relationship with him. I wonder if I am really cut out for motherhood. When I see people with twins all I can think of is "thank goodness it's not me".
Everyone says "it's gets easier", "hang in there"...but it has not gotten any easier, and I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel.
We have researched several "sleep consultants" in our area, but it turns out they can only offer variations of "cry it out" which we do not want to do to our son.
I belong to a mom's group and they are all very nice ladies, but all have kids that sleep decently. It annoys me when they complain that they have had one bad night - which is always better than any night we have - and there is this outpooring of sympathy from the other moms. When I have raised our sleep problem they just say "have you tried letting him cry it out".
What makes me angry is that, let's say he had a physical problem, such as not walking properly, there would be plenty of professional help that would actually address the problem. No one would say "let him figure it out for himself". But when it comes to sleep, there is no help out there that actually addresses the core problem.
Anyway all I could think to do this morning was to express how I am feeling, which right now is incredibly dark and desperate.