My baby is gone. - Page 6

[Kathy White]

We lost our dear baby Ben  full term on boxing day 15 years ago.  

 We heard some awful things said to us after he died.  "What's the gift in this?", "What is your karma that this has happened to you?" my dad  (bless him), said the classic "You can always have another," then bought me a dog  as a substitute (needless to say we didn't take the dog)  Yet, now in certainty I can say I still feel Ben around and count my blessings for having him in my life for those sweet nine months, and in my heart ever since. 

My heart is full of love for you and I just want to say I've been there - I know the pain, the loss and the tears and I am sending you so many blessings.

xxKathy

I didn't catch your baby's  name?

[Katico]

Hoping your labour has shown signs of beginning, tutu, so that you can begin to heal and grieve your loss.

I think of you daily and wish you all the peace that is possible in this difficult time.  

[by-the-lake]

Thinking of you Tutu

[AKislandgirl]

I just saw via peaceful parenting that you birthed your baby boy Jude. Wishing you lots of peace at this difficult time.

[starling&diesel]

For Jude ...

Your life and death and birth will be honoured forever more.

[StephandOwen]

Many hugs.

[~pi]

tutu.

Jude.

[livacreature]

  Peace to you, your husband, and sons.  

[Katico]

Jude    

[tutucrazy]

Hello friends! As you know know, Jude Mateo was born yesterday in his own timing and in our home. His birth was perfect in every way. The labor and birth went quite fast and afterward he and I lay to rest in our own bed. It was a moment I will cherish forever. The midwife who attended me was a hero and a blessing. She is a 76 year old CNM who is dear friends with Ina May. She agreed to attend me when my other care providers had ditched me. I was so blessed to have her. She could read me like an open book and every suggestion she made was exactly what I needed in the moment. Afterward I was in awe of her and her skills. I know that kind of knowledge, knowing what a woman needs in the moment she needs it, is something that only experience can teach. Experience is something she doesn't run short on, she has attended over 5,500 births! She was so incredibly in tune with every second..."WOW" is all I can say!

Jude's cord was wrapped tightly around his neck 3 times and he had a true knot in the cord at one of the nuchal loops. The cord then wrapped tightly under his arm pit and around his back. It was evident that cord compression and entanglement were the cause of his death as the nuchal loops were very tight and the cord was completely compressed at the knot. After reading Dr. Jason Collins research, it was every bit of what I had expected had happened.

Thank you all, from the bottom of my heart, for your love and support!

[Mainebirdgirl]

Wow. You are an amazing and inspiring woman to give us such a report from the birth of your Jude Mateo. 

I'm so, so glad that you had such support and were able to have precious moments with your son. 

I hope your physical and emotional recovery goes as well as it possibly can. My prayers and thoughts are still with you. Thank you so much for letting us know.

[Snugglebugmom]

Many prayers, many hugs, and much much love, Jennifer. 

[Mama~Love]

{{{HUGS}}} Jennifer, thank you for sharing . I'm so glad you had the support you needed, your midwife sounds absolutely amazing. Lots of love & hugs .

[starling&diesel]

Oh, Jennifer ... I am so glad that you had the support of such an amazing veteran midwife.  And I'm so happy for you that you were able to have the birth you and Jude so deserved.  Thank you so much for sharing.  You and Jude and your family have very much been in my thoughts, and will continue to be. 

[~pi]

Thank you for sharing. It's wonderful to hear that you had that precious time to hold him. You, Jude and your family remain in my thoughts. I am wishing you all peace.

[PseudoDiva]

Thanks for sharing, Tutu.  So glad you had the support you need. 

[yellowdart]

I'm so glad Jude was able to be honored with a natural birth in such a peaceful environment, and I'm so so sorry he couldn't stay.  Love and light to you and your family.  

[puente]

All peace and blessings to you Tutu.  You are in my thoughts and prayers everyday.  I think all that is good that you had such a tremendous midwife to help you through birth.  Bless her. 

[Poodge]

Thank you for sharing Jude's birth, much love to you, Jude, and your family.

[emmaegbert]

I am honored that you shared the story of Jude's birth with us. It sounds like you had an incredible attendant with you. My love and support to you and your family.