I had started pumping a little yesterday to start building up my freezer supply, so I had a couple of ounces available and I figured I'd try giving it to him in a bottle just to see if he'd take the bottle. Well, he drank nearly three ounces from the bottle and immediately relaxed. He actually calmed down so well that he slept until after 2am in his cosleeper.
I was so hopeful in the beginning that I wouldn't have to deal with low supply this time and it truly seemed like I was good to go. He has been gaining weight like crazy compared to ds1 and hasn't been much of a fusser at all. Now, it has all changed.
I ordered my domperidone last night and I hope the small amount I still have on hand will get me through till the order comes.
I've never felt truly "full" even once since my milk came in. I've just been kidding myself the whole last month. Now I have to face the truth. I just hope I can find a way to not have to fully wean ds1 as well. He really needs to nurse still.
I'll be calling for an appointment with the local IBCLC group to start up weekly feed and weighs to make sure I don't starve this baby. and I'm starting a pumping regimen to keep up nipple stimulation. I really hope I don't have to supplement with formula at all. If I can pump enough in addition to what Alexander gets while nursing, I should be able to supplement just with EBM.
I'm sad, angry, frustrated, and disgusted that my body is betraying me and my children yet again. Why can't this just work?!?