I have no idea if anything like this would touch your anxiety, but have you tried anything like Rescue Remedy? It's supposed to be instantly calming and it's all natural, safe during pregnancy. Might be worth a try, even if it just takes the edge off?
Jaimee, sorry about your lack of sleep. I can relate to the allergy thing. Dp has mystery allergies, and he will just sit around sneezing and coughing 300 times a day. I want to smack him each time, but I try very hard to keep it inside. I have no clue why he won't do something about it! I've given him lots of options as far as natural remedies go. And he has allergy pills. Why he could even, God forbid!!, go to the DOCTOR! Who knew?? But no, he just sneezes loudly all the freaking time. Is this just a man thing?
So I'm waking up now worried about the day. Blah. I do not like dealing with any anxiety or depression after having it under control for years. It scares me. I spent an hour crying on the phone to dp yesterday for no reason. Just crap like, "I can't handle this. Everything is horrible. I'm useless." Stuff that is so not like me anymore. But I feel like if I don't stop taking the meds, I don't care enough about my baby. I think the worst part is that no one understands. There is such a stigma attached to antidepressants. Even dp told me to just be strong. I hate it when people say that!! No one would ever tell me that if I was strong enough, I wouldn't need my thyroid meds. Like I could just regulate my own thyroid hormones by breathing and doing yoga, right? And maybe some homeopathic remedies? No! So why does everyone think that I won't be depressed/ anxious if I do those things?
Ugh... sorry for the rant. I'm just feeling down.