So I think that I've got it in my head that I need to go home. I am going to be chatting more with DH about it later today - but I just really have to get myself back home.
If I am going to get my way, I am prepared to stay until Friday - which will mean my waters have been broken for a full week and I'll be at 33 weeks.
I feel like I will be safe and taken care of at home because:
-I'm not showing any signs of infection and all the testing they have done has also proven this to be true. We are still waiting on the amnio results - and if those show a problem I will be delivering right away, anyway.
-I'm not contracting any more than I have been. I get a few BH here and there, but nothing that hurts or even puts a lot of pressure.
-I'm not bleeding. I bled a few pink drops on Saturday and again on Sunday - but Sunday's blood was during urination only and after the catheter catch - so I think that was from my urethra.
-DH can be with me 24/7. He has full access to work from home and his boss has already told him to take all the time he needs. DH can do all the cooking, cleaning, etc.
-I have a comfortable bed and a safe place on my couch in which to be on bedrest. I will have no stairs to climb at any time.
And to add to that, I can monitor my blood glucose and blood pressure from home as I have the machines to do both of those things. I can easily take my temp every four hours and take an oral antibiotic every six hours, just like I am here. I can purchase or rent a dopler if needed, or come to the hospital for NSTs once a day or a couple times a week. I can do kick counts several times a day from home, as well. I have read a lot of the PROM threads on MDC and taken notes on how to keep as clean an environment for my vaginal area as I can.
The most important thing to me: I can be eating my own food. I am really stressing about the fact that I'm not getting my grass fed, free range, organic meats, eggs and dairy... I'm SO bent out of shape over that. I am having more stress over that than I am anything else. I have had DH bring me some things from home, but my meals are coming from the hospital cafeteria, and I am not comfortable with that AT ALL.
I am being realistic, I think. And I know my home birth is out of the question, and I'm not going to try and push that. I can only work with the situation I've been given, so I've cut of the part of me that needed a home birth. I am fully prepared to return to the hospital for birth. And the hospital I am in (and will birth at) has shown itself to be very pro-breastfeeding and very supportive of a natural vaginal birth. I feel DH and I are educated enough, as well, that we can make informed decisions.
So, am I crazy to be thinking this way? I feel really good about my pregnancy right now - baby hasn't changed his sleep/wake/kick habits since I've been here. His HR has always been steady on the monitors. I am still losing fluid, but it's a trickle here and there or a small gush once a day. I'm keeping up on my fluid intake and I'm going pee about once an hour during the day and about three times per night. I'm taking my vitamins... I just don't know what else to add!