italiamom, i am so thankful for your generous offer to watch my babe! i think i can hold out until y's papa comes out. he should be here in 2 weeks-ish. as hard as it is for me to leave my littles, i think his first "babysitter" should be his daddy. we should absolutely get together outside of a dentist's office! i know i promised you a cup of tea before our family was wrought with germs and buggies, and now all of that has finally cleared. you down? neither one of us will have to leave our baby.
oh!! and don't worry about clipping the tongue tie or lip tie-- i don't know if i even posted on here when y's lip frenulums were found by lc # 2, but we ended up at the dr.'s office on tuesday for y's frenotomy. the procedure was really simple and he was easy to soothe. funny, though, that it took two of us adults to hold down one 11 and a half pound baby!
my tooth pain is lessening, and while i know i NEED to get some dental issues taken care of while i have the insurance (and thank all of you wonderful mamas ushering me into the office i totally need my butt kicked in order to actually do it), i've kind of got a lot going on mouthwise and it will surely be more then one visit. yep, 20 years of no dental care (though not without thorough home care!) have started to catch up with me. funny, i think having babies brings it on- my first major tooth issue was two years ago, right after i birthed the surrogate babe....
on stretchmarks--- i've got 'em for sure. they've never come after baby though, what a trick! i do think it is super interesting the way my stretchmarks have gotten longer with each pregnancy ( OT--i really cannot believe i have birthed 4 babies into the world ). i haven't gotten any more, really, they just keep getting longer. i totally agree with kyla, we are all beautiful, and to think of what those marks have stretched to hold...it is amazing.
in regards to significant others-- i am excited, nervous, and scared out of my gourd about the return of y's papa. there are a great many conversations we have not had about our baby/ parenting/ how to map differences in values/ etc, etc because of the great distance between us, and the reality that we would be miles and miles away for a great deal of time while i was parenting solo. long story, lots of history, some of you may remember reading pieces of it at other times on here, but basically he split for technical reasons, to care for his older children out where they are because of the way the custody is set up (he has to be there in order to see them and partake in their lives). that has not been going well, and he is coming back. at first he was not interested AT ALL in being responsible for a new baby, but gradually became excited about the idea. he has made a complete 180 at this point, where he is quite excited to re-establish connection between us and collaborate in the care of our child. whoa. i don't know this terrain well at all. while sometimes i have fantasized about what it would be like to have someone share the diaper duty, etc (and kudos to all you mamas pushing nighttime diapers onto papa!), i have NEVER done so. i don't know how to navigate this. we're from different schools of thought and i certainly don't envy all the work you mamas are putting into your relationships right now. i really like my independence. you don't end up where i am in life without some sort of an independence complex.....it started young. it is engrained. (for instance, i moved out, had a job, and paid rent when i was 14...)
also....this dear friend of mine walked away when i was carrying his child, left for the whole pregnancy, made few and lacking attempts to communicate, missed the birth and amazing first moments / hours / weeks / of our child's life, and is planning on swooping back in. i had to do a lot of eradicating him from my mind and emotions, you know? yet, here he is again.... and i am certainly excited to see him and to think of what may be ( in the very broad realm of what we may create together out of our circumstances ), but i feel quite guarded and i am not willing to give up my ground. gosh, what a rollercoaster to hop on when i am already radically hormonal!
p.s. i am so eager to here about sara and baby alicia! i hope she is snuggled down with her babe and really immersed in that...and yet, i selfishly want to here how it all went down. even though my own birthstory has yet to be written (here or anywhere).....