I had supply issues early on so I am always sort of on the edge of having enough. When we nurse things are absolutely fine but I am a part time worker.
My caretaker, a pro sitter who ran her own daycare, feeds my LO somewhere between 9-10 oz on a normal day, sometimes he eats more (like 12-13 oz) in 6 hours. She knows what to do though to make sure he's really hungry for it.
My in-laws... they're so sweet. They volunteer and care for LO one day a week, 8 hours. On these days, they feed him beyond what I can keep up with - 20 oz in 8 hours! And he's "still hungry" according to them.
I guess I'm just venting. I've given them access to my freezer stash. Once they defrosted three ounces and it didn't get used and I was bfing for the next day so it was not usable. I had to put it down the drain (liquid gold, there it goes....)
Because of my work schedule and supply issues, lo has had formula supplementation. A lot at the beginning, then we made it to EBF. We're still EBF on weekends, and my days off, etc. but on occasion I don't pump enough and we either hit the freezer stash or hit the formula for a two ounce snack.
I guess I just want to vent and commiserate. I am not up for a big confrontation on "how to give the baby a bottle" because they're very touchy and I think we have a good thing going on. I am choosing my battles extremely wisely. I'd rather take a strong stand over keeping him well covered when out in direct sunlight than fussing over the number of ounces he takes in. They are enjoying caring for him and I need the time and can't make things a hassle.
It's only once a week, he's not puking (more than usual, a little dribble here and there), he's happy...
It stresses me out to think I'm being eaten out of house and home. If my other caretaker had him this day instead of my inlaws I'd be fine on my supply and pumping.
But it's important that he bond with his grandparents who live near by. I'm uptight about having to pump so much and always feeling a little under the gun - they're taking everything in the fridge today and are taking all my pumping today so I'm not going to have anything left over freshly pumped for my caretaker on Monday.
My therapist says I need to chill out on needing to give him EBF. I am doing as much as humanly possible for me but the stress isn't good for me. I think I just have to say I'm doing my best. I'm not going to stop bfing or anything I plan to go strong through the first year at least, but I guess I just have to let go of perfectionist thinking and use the freezer stash and then go to formula. The freezer stash should get me through this one day a week through the six month mark.
I could just use an online hug I guess and say thanks for reading my tirade.