Okay, I'm 33 weeks today. I have three small children, no family help (we moved here a year ago, 1000 miles from family), some friends, but of course they are new friends, a HUGE to-do list, and not enough time or energy to accomplish everything.
My DH is great help with the small stuff - he does laundry, helps with the kids, does dishes, etc. When I give him the tools and point him in a direction he will do bigger projects like move furniture, help me paint rooms, etc. When he's not at work, he looks to me for direction, instruction, etc. in terms of projects/things that need to be done.
And I am feeling VERY overwhelmed. We have nothing done on the baby's room (just a pile of clothes in a crib and dressers full of my other kids' clothes in the room). We've had projects around the house that needed to be done months and months ago that are now stacking up (like a massively clogged shower drain, doors that need planing because they don't open all the way, etc). On top of all that, there are things I wish I could do like update our family photo albums (I am SOOO behind - 2006!), send photos to the grandparents that have been sitting and just need frames (we had professional photos taken and now they are collecting dust), my older son has a birthday at the end of the month, etc. Add those kind of things to the day-to-day: I am the room parent for one of my kid's classes, I have 4 drop off and picks ups for school each day (we carpool most of the time, so some of that is lessened), and I am dragging a 2yo and 4yo around everywhere I go.
And I'm tired. I hit a wall at about 12:30 every day and just so desperately want to put my feet up and rest. But I hardly ever get the chance because of daily life maintenance and the fact that my 4yo is home at that time and is in a phase where he is scared to be in any room of the house without me. I put a TV show on for him now and then and try to crash on the couch next to him, but he is active and talkative and will.not.leave.me.alone.
I'm just so burned out and tired and frustrated by the lack of progress on all the things I want/need to do.
My DH thinks I need to just cross a lot off my list. But that suggestion in itself bothers me because that's why so much of it never gets done - he'd rather just delay or cancel the project. And I'm sick of staring at things that need to get done. And I'm tired of being the one who has to motivate, organize, and get the project going. But at the same time, I see I am being slightly over ambitious and the ability to enjoy the last few weeks of this pregnancy rests in me....I NEED to let some things go and just BE.
But, oh, how do I do that? And how do I do that without just letting everything drop?