I've been feeling terrible lately.Tight chest,hurts to even touch it,upper and middle back pain,extreme fatigue,occasional tingling in my tongue,hands and feet,low grade fever,and now my lower back really hurts.I went to urgent care,they did a chest xray,which was normal.They diagnosed me with gerd,and put me on prilosect 20mg 2x a day.No improvement,so I went back a couple of days later.This time they did a bunch of blood work,to check for a blood clot in my lung,cbc,gall bladder,thyroid,and I'm not sure what else.All was normal,except my white blood cells were a tiny bit elevated.They also ordered a gall bladder and liver ultrasound,again,normal.I finally got into my dr,and she referred me to a surgeon,but I can't get in until the 26th.I've tried ibuprophen for the pain,it does nothing.
I'm on a bunch of meds,lamictal,wellbutrin,zoloft,klonopin,claritin,2 inhalers for asthma,and levothyroxine for hashimoto's hypothyroidism.I won't go to the hospital,they are useless.I've gone there maybe a handful of times in over 10 years,and they always tell me nothing is wrong,and act like I am wasting their time.I'd rather go to urgent care,they are very nice and they try to find out what is going on.I have been diagnosed with fibromyalgia,so maybe this is just a really bad flare up?
I'm under a lot of stress.Ds is a huge handful,and I have no help whatsoever.My house is a mess,and all I hear from my parents is how lazy I am.Dd tries to help.My mom even told me,if it was my gall bladder and I needed surgery,that she would not help me,because it is nothing,and she wouldn't even take ds for a little while.She doesn't work,so it's not like she's tired from that.Dad would help a little,but he works 2nd shift,and has a severe form of arthritis,so I don't want to make him hurt more.Exh is out of the picture,I put a restraining order on him,good for a year,he was coming here drunk,threatening me,trying to break in,passing out and peeing all over my porch,and of course he said it was all my fault.I have to see him on Tuesday,in court for child support.I am terrified.We have to take the same bus,I have no other way of getting there.My best friend needs to have an internal defibrulator put into her heart soon,and I'll have her 7yo dd while that happens.I owe money to my dad and step dad,and my dad is constantly yelling at me for it.Doing things like laundry suck,as I have to carry it downstairs.I have to clean the 4 kitty boxes often,and I can't even cook because the clean up is too much for me.So I get yelled at for that too,because i am too lazy.We eat sandwiches,frozen meals,and disgusting fast food,which I know doesn't help me at all.I have no other friends,exh saw to that. :(
I am just at my wits end!I want to feel better,even one day of relief!I went to Target with my mom today,got yelled at by her for everything I bought,but I couldn't carry home kitty litter on the bus,so I am exhausted.I can't exactly get away from my parents,I live in my dad's apartment house,with him downstairs,and mom and step dad in the basement apt.I can't move,I have no money,and no where else is going to put up with ds's screaming,or let me have my 6 sweet kitties.I think I'll go take a nap,or listen to my ipod for a while.Thanks so much for reading.







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