Warning - long whine coming up, sorry for jumping in like this but I just haven't had time to 'chat' until now and apparently I have a lot to say!
It's so reassuring to read that I'm not the only one having major issues with food! I am constantly hungry or feeling queasy from not eating the right thing (usually protein, but sometimes a bit of fruit does the trick). I am so sick of trying to figure out what I can eat that actually appeals to me and will satisfy my hunger for more than half an hour. If I wait too long I get that 'food panic' mode which is when I beg DH to bring me something, anything, quick before I feel like puking. I'm also so tired and lazy feeling, I'm sure that if I ate better (more iron, maybe?) it would help, but that would require using more energy to actually prepare food. I'm flying from Australia to California on Thursday and I'm so nervous about feeling crappy on the flight, being sensitive to smells (this is the only thing that has made me actually puke so far), and not being able to sleep in the uncomfortable seats. Normally I don't mind long-haul flights at all, after living overseas from my family for 10 years, I'm quite used to it, but I'm just not myself anymore.
To continue my whining, I bought a scale this week after not having one for years, since I thought it would be good to have an idea of how much I weigh early on in the pregnancy (I'm almost 9 weeks). The last time I weighed myself was around February, at the gym and I was 128 lb. When I weighed myself on this new scale (that I bought for $9 at Kmart, probably a mistake to buy the cheapest one), it said I was over 140 lbs!! Talk about scale shock! I am naturally slim (have never worried about gaining weight) and have not weighed over 130 my entire life, or so I thought. For the first time in my life I understood some women's obsession with losing weight/dieting/working out.
I guess the past few months of sitting in front of my desk all day working on my PhD thesis have really added up. I know it's not all from the pregnancy because quite a few of my pants became too tight long before I was pregnant. I haven't noticed much weight gain in the past month or two, except my boobs becoming huge, but I don't think that can add an extra 10 pounds. I want to believe that the scale is somewhat off, because DH got on it and it said he weighed a lot more than he thinks he does, and he's been exercising lately and looks in good shape. I am seriously considering asking nicely if I can hop on the scale they use to weigh luggage at the airport on Thursday, I assume it will be more accurate than the dodgy Kmart one.
At least DH is understanding about it, I think he is actually enjoying my body becoming more 'voluptuous' as he calls it, certainly he doesn't mind my new boobs. I know this is the time when we're 'allowed' to gain weight but at the moment I'm surprised that I feel like a fat blob who is only going to get fatter. I wish I would have been more physically active before getting pregnant, now I get so tired just going for a walk so I don't see how I can exercise enough to prevent myself from turning into a giant flab monster.
I think I will get back into yoga, starting today. That can help a lot to make me feel better about my body.