Bel: Twins! That is very exciting. Especially if they're identical, I think that's every 14-year-old girl's dream . . . or maybe just mine. Anyway, twins are probably a little intimidating, but also very exciting. As far as the worry getting less, I found that the first-trimester worries far outweighed any worries I've had since. It might be different for people who haven't had a loss . . . my sister kept telling me that it doesn't go away, and my parents kept telling me it doesn't go away EVER, like that worry sticks around even when your kids are adults and responsible for themselves. But I found that the first-trimester total freakout about miscarriage was almost unbearable, and all the worries since have been much smaller. I hope that you start to feel totally confident and secure as time passes. I'm not in some total zen state now, but I feel like I can handle anything that happens. It is such a dramatic difference from my worried, insecure previous self that I wonder if it might not be partly hormonal - our bodies' way of forcing us to become better at dealing with things by making us feel like we can. In other words, YOU CAN DO IT!
As regarding poop: I've had a couple of days of non-solid, but now I'm back to solid again. And I've had a bit of an increase in mucous, but it just seems like regular mucous, not like the plug. I think my body is starting to gear up, I always have the non-solid poop before I menstruate too, although usually only for one day. But I don't think it's imminent.
Tear: I might sound pretty bad-ass, like I'm doing ALL THE THINGS, but usually the thing that I post about is all that I do that day. Today I had a doctor's appointment and bought about 4 things in town. And I have four loaves of banana bread in the oven right now (three to freeze) . . . and I talked to tech support on the phone until our internet was fixed. So normally I just wouldn't have mentioned any of those things, because they're not really a big enough project to warrant mentioning. I think the effect is that it sounds like I'm doing all these big projects when really I'm mostly just doing a few little things each day, with the occasional larger thing . . . and usually my husband does most of those ones, I just sit in a chair nearby and act as the brains . . . such as they are right now.
AFM: So, pregnancy brain. I think my husband didn't realize how real of a phenomenon it was until a couple of days ago, when I couldn't remember the family name for wasps and bees (or is it order?). This is the sort of thing that I never forget, I sometimes get scientific names stuck in my head. But I couldn't remember hymenoptera, and I had to ask him. He was floored. And a little worried. He asked me, "It goes away, right?". I told him that from what I've heard, it does. He said he would miss that aspect of me if it didn't come back. I thought it was sweet, because I've never thought of my steel-trap mind for things like scientific names as something particularly useful, just a strange quirk of mine. Apparently it's a quirk he likes.
In other news, my doctor didn't want to check me because she's leaving town for the weekend and most of next week, back on Wednesday and Thursday, and then gone next weekend too. And she doesn't want to miss my birth, she's excited about it. She told me, "No long walks, no sex, and no castor oil. Unless you want to," which I thought was funny. Especially funny is the order she said it in, like I might be unable to resist the castor oil specifically. Anyway, even if she's not here, I would be pretty happy with either of the other possible doctors that would be there, but I would prefer my own doctor, just because I know her better and feel more confident around her. I don't have any illusions that I can affect it much if baby's time to come arrives, so I'll just have to see. I have thought for most of the pregnancy that going late was more likely than going early, so hopefully I'm right.
All the best to everyone, time for me to go eat some supper!