I have been diagnosed with BPD for 12 years now, only found out about it recently and 're-diagnosed' with it.
Thing is, no one will medicate me as I am so 'unstable', (jeez), I have been in and out of therapy since I was 12. I have tried all sorts of things. I am pretty sure I suffer from bipolar as well.
Anti depressants make me manic, mood stabilisers make me depressed, no one wants to try them together. I am going in for MORE therapy tomorrow for a course lasting 12 weeks, then ANOTHER course after that and then I will be put on a (18 month long) waiting list for one to one therapy......... Its the NHS..........
Nothing seems to help, I have tried fish oils, tried st. johns wort, exercise, hypnosis, art therapy, various talking therapies, various herbal remedies and on and on it goes and NOTHING works for me.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I am obviously going to do this course a) because I hope it will have some effect, b) because if I don't do it they assume I am not willing to help myself, so I do all the things I am told and c) the psychologist running it is seriously cute.
I am just tired of all the crap that goes with this damned diagnosis, I am tired of my family having to put up with it, I am tired of therapy that doesn't seem to work for me, I am tired of my 'female hormones' always being brought up by psychiatrists, I am tired of every damned aspect of my mental health and I am tired of not being believed about the bipolar........... (I get severely depressed, can have periods where I am kinda normal and also have periods where I am quite clearly manic, thing is, cos the psychiatrists have only really been involved recently, they haven't seen it, I know at the moment my mood is good and heading up which isn't good).
I can't afford private care so am stuck with the NHS........... There has to be something out there that helps?????