So my twins (my only kids) are 9 months and for the most part it has been pretty reasonable this whole time. yeah my house is messier than i wish but i have to say i'm pretty proud that i am pulling this off with no real help or family close by. I'm sure someone will post and tell me that the hard part is still to come? is it?
So i have been really yearning for more kids and i thought i would never be the gal that would say that, 2 was always going to be just right for us. now i keep thinking about having big family dinners and siblings that have each other when they all grow up and have families of their own. and since im 37 and dh is 41 and it took us a long time to get preggo with this set, im starting to worry that if i want more i need to get on it pronto. (im thinking 4)
sooooo..... am i crazy? or more importantly am i doing this for the right reasons, its hard to be objective about the whole thing. Do i just want to be preggo again? i had a great pregnancy for the most part and do miss it. Do i just want to get another chance at the water birth i didn't get to have with twins and the last minute issues?
I can say that i dont think it is just about cute babies, because no matter how much o love these little ones, in my dreams of more kids its actually much older kids and grown children that i think about most, the thought of having 3 or 4 kids in elementary school is actually the scariest part to me. im also pretty terrified that my next one will be really high maintenance. i've dealt with twins, but heck i have not dealt with colic!
so what do you think, am i nuts, deluding myself or just figuring out that i love being a mom? how do i figure out which one it is??
(im EBF and only just started small amounts of solids, so i have no signs of fertility yet, so this is just pondering at this point, but yikes we all know what happens to the ladies that say that around here, wham!)