I'm so sick of contracting. I wish this child would get out of my ribs. She has not dropped at all.
Lifeguard: Perhaps a slide is somehow going to trigger a smooth trip down the birth canal! I hope you feel better with the contractions. ANd that your DS sleeps. For real.
Rosemary: That sounds so nifty. I'm looking forward to planting veg next year. We moved midseason this year so I didn't get much of a yield.
Trinket: YAY! Congratulations to you and your husband!
I'm already feeling encroached on by family. DH's parents are wanting to come up after she is born. The initial agreement was the weekend after we're out of the hospital. Now his mom is taking off the week of the 10th (the 10th was my initial due date, dating ultrasound then put it the 17th, I think it is likely somehwere in between) and asking how long I'll be at the hospital. I don't know. Kind of depends how things go. Or if I deliver by then. I know they want to see the baby, but I don't know. I was fine with them coming the weekend after so I could have a few days at home before hand to get my barrings, but now I feel like they are going to be here RIGHT AWAY. My mom is coming the 19th for a week, which is a bit sooner than I thought, but at least there is sometime. And she is my mother. I just don't want to field visitors right away. I'm a (at times ridiculously) private person, I am also a person who isolates to get used to big changes. Once I'm used to something, I'm fine, but I hate being around people while I am just fielding something. I am not someone who likes advice, I like to just dive in and do it. I don't want people trying to help me in the first few days. I need to know I can do this. I just don't get why people ask what would work best for me if they are just going to change it up at the last minute. And now I feel like I'm having to deliver on a schedule. And like I hold DH, what if I'm in the hospital a bit longer recovering or need to stay longer to get re-regulated on the blood sugar front? What if baby needs to stay longer for blood sugar issues? Under no circumstances will I be fielding ANY visitor in the hospital. I kind of feel like the baby is being seen as like a source of entertainment or something, and I am being pressured to bring it. I'm sure a lot of it is normal pre-baby anxiety, coupled with in-laws visiting ALWAYS being a stressful experiences, and me needing to feel in control. I accept that I don't have a ton of control when it comes to the delivery, but can't I at least control who comes into my house? Plus, MIL has serious boundary issues. And she is completely camera happy. One of her biggest joys is taking unflattering pictures of people and fussing over how cute they are. I will break it, dammit. Both inlaws are very much into telling people how they feel, and I can't stand that. They are completely hallmark card sentimentalists, I'm very guarded emotionally and don't like hearing them try to "get at me" (as they sometimes put it). They are also horribly untactful (when visiting the hospital when my father was clearly dying, my FIL asked several times about his life insurance. At my father's funeral, he pulled me aside to tell me that even though I was managing okay, it would only get worst as time passed.) It is a very offensive/defensive relationship. They also are not big into being helpful. They don't cook, they act like they are elderly (both are in their early fifties, NOT ELDERLY) and relish in their "old age". They also are very heavy packers. Last time they visited for two days, one could not walk through my living room for all of their shit. Seriously, when I have flown home, I have never taken more than a carry-on which includes back up medical supplies. We aren't in the middle of nowhere, be reasonable, and please, don't pack your own cleaning supplies. It is rude. So, DH is already trying to figure out ways to entertain them, trying to figure out what to feed them, etc. They aren't dog people, and my dog rules the roost. If they say anything negative about my girl, they will get hit. I'm trying really hard to be nice and pleasant. She is their first, likely only grandchild and they live eight hours away. I just don't like the shift in plans. I feel like if I fight it too hard, I'm just going to come across as a bitch, because MIL has the time off and her company has an ass backwards vacation policy. But I am also way overwhelmed by it. I'm also worried that I will just be so tired when they get here (looking like we're talking induction or csection right now) that I will come across mean either way. DH already had to explain to them recovery time (MIL swears labor doesn't hurt, never had morning sickness, (always with a snide implication that she didn't have those because she just loved her son that much) and FIL adopted DH when he was 12 and is clueless with babies. His biggest, consistent declaration is the oh-so-mature 'I'm not changing diapers!' Um, fine, I never asked you to. Again, intensely private person, I'm not really comfortable with the whole family changing my daughter.) and that I will need lots of privacy for feeding. I'm thinking maybe I'm focusing my stress on them coming so not to focus on labor nerves. That makes sense right?