For the Protestant canon (what most of America refers to as the "Bible") I like my NASB study Bible. Otherwise I am reading a lot of the Gnostic gospels and texts (the Gospel of Thomas being my favorite), and currently reading the Qu'ran.
I am a mystic/Universalist heavily into Liberation Theology. This is a development of the past year. For my previous 30 years I was a fundamentalist evangelical...and passionately so. I was a missionary. But that theology fell apart for me. It was scary. It still is hard because most of my friends and extended family are still fundamentalist evangelical and most don't even know what I believe now. I am afraid of what will happen if they do. Thankfully my husband and immediate family (parents, brothers, sister-in-laws) are on the same page or at least very understanding. And we were all VERY evangelical (missionaries, worship leaders, Assistant Pastors, etc).
I, too would second reading just the words of Jesus for now. I personally would start with the Synoptic gospels (Matthew, Mark and Luke), and compare how different John is. The Synoptic gospels present a more human Christ. John is much more other-worldly, filled with his personal reflection on who and what Christ was/is. Decide for yourself through prayer, research and reflection weather you want to filter His words through the rest of the New Testament, through Christianity or anything else. Otherwise, if you just read His words you may find a very different message than Christendom has made them out to be. I personally don't think He came to start another religion.
I have found the Kingdom of God was/is His message, not personal salvation from sins and hell (I don't believe in a literal hell anymore), and that Kingdom isn't limited to any doctrinal or theological creed (Christianity, etc).
I pray your path is illuminated and your heart heals. I pray for support/community for you. Peace.