super tight hugs zubeldia. I'm so sorry. Like MAnna, I'm asking what you're measuring too. Thinking about you.
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Expecting our RAINBOW babies - graduates of "hoping, healing & conceiving again" tread 2011 - Page 20post #381 of 51410/20/11 at 7:02ampost #382 of 51410/20/11 at 7:08am
Thanks, both. I am definitely 7 weeks 3 days (no late implantation for me since I got a BFP at 9dpo). HB was fine at 129, but only measured 6mm - which is just over 6 weeks, I think. This is very similar to my last m/c. I went back 3 weeks in a row hoping things would 'catch up'. I just wish this was over. I have blood work at 11:30 and waiting for my Dr to call me. I feel fairly hopeless. God knows how I will manage this and work at the same time. Last time was during the summer so I didn't have to deal with people, now I have appointments coming out of my ears.post #383 of 51410/20/11 at 7:23am
zub - Oh, I don't know what to say. My heart just dropped reading your post. I so hope things turn around. When are you scheduled for another scan? I don't know anything about hb rates or growth except I had heard they can be off by as much as a week...which you are at that limit...I just so want this to work out for you. Please keep us posted, and try as much as you can to take care of yourself emotionally today for sure. Do you have the day off?post #384 of 51410/20/11 at 7:37ampost #385 of 51410/20/11 at 8:27amThread Starter
I will update all the dates accordingly and set up a proper US list soon, as soon as I can keep my face out of the loo for long enough.
Zub - I am so sorry that you didn't get the good results you were hoping for. At least the heart beat was good. All we can do is hope that the growth will increase and all will work out great. I don't know what to say. Hugs and just know that we are all rooting for you and your little one.
This is getting harder and harder by the day. I cannot even feel the normal magical excitement I use to get when was pregnant, nothing I do seems to work. I keep thinking it is going to get better next week, but it doesn't. This black cloud keeps hanging over my head all the time, and its driving me nuts. I don'y want to be a root of negativity so everyone shy's away from me, but EVERY time I go to the loo I check for bleeding. When i get a cramp, my heart skips a beat. This is not fair and I can't understand why some people are made to go trough this, its not normal. How did woman handle this in THE OLD DAYS?
I want to warn my pregnant friends that is importing the most expensive pram on the market, while only 15 weeks pregnant, (Bugaboo Donkey or something!). but I am managing to keep this negativity to myself for now - but how I long to be so sure that all will be fine. We all go trough live in different ways, but here we are all the same. Scared, alone in many ways and uncertain of what tomorow brings.
No I see that Milk has lost her perfect little baby - again. And I wish I could make it better, but yet there is nothing I can even say to make her feel better. Zub has bad news at her scan, and same story - I cannot make it any better.post #386 of 51410/20/11 at 8:44am
Corgi, don't worry about spreading dark clouds...I'm already under one. I haven't been able to get happy or excited at all yet. I can't get over the feeling that it's just a matter of time, that I've seen the one and only time that the heart will be beating on an ultrasound. I had a backache and a few cramps last night and I was seeing DOOM. I didn't feel sick first thing this morning and it spelled DOOM. I watched Milk lose hers and now Zub has bad news and I just feel sick. I'm going to be right back on that TTCAL board before long. I check for blood every. single. time. Someone commented on my blog last night that she just had her u/s and we are at the exact same point. She was so excited. All I could think was when I lose mine it's going to be horrible to see her going through her pregnancy at the exact same stages I would have been and have a healthy baby at the exact same time mine would have been born. I know good and well that's not what she was thinking because she's never had a loss. It stinks. I wish I could just be happy and excited and looking forward to a healthy baby. I got a picture at the u/s yesterday so I would have something for the memory box. Zub's heart rate was significantly faster than mine and she's looking at bad news. What does that mean for me? I can't trust the doctor I saw farther than I can throw him. I have no faith that he would tell me if things didn't look good.
This is horrible.post #387 of 51410/20/11 at 8:53amThread Starter
Anna - it seems like I am not alone and I can see all my feelings mirrored in yours. It is awful - who in their right mind would have thought, after longing to be pregnant - this is how we will feel? All I -can think and hope for is that you and the other ladies will be around for the next 7-8 months and we can carry each other trough this, as there is not a lot of people in the real world that understands, not even my DH, he does try but not quite understand my fear. He just keep saying that "we dont really have a problem" "dont worry,the dr said it will be fine". None of tha matters to me any more. I had a bloody 1% chance of having a MC after first trimester with a healthy baby - and yet that was me. My baby died, how can I trust any statistics ever again?post #388 of 51410/20/11 at 9:06am
Yes, who expects to have a 12 1/2 week baby die for no discernable reason? No infection, no placental separation, no cervical incompetence, no chronic illness (diabetes, htn, etc.). It's not supposed to happen. I tried to discuss the possibility of a blood clot in the cord as a cause with the doctor on Tuesday and he totally blew me off. I wasn't trying to get a firm diagnosis, just a discussion of the possibility (which was going to dovetail into my discussion of being on baby aspirin). I wound up not telling him I was taking the aspirin because I knew he would ream me out and insist I stop taking it. I have it on good authority that I ought to be taking it from other OBs and if I stopped taking it at this point, then mc'd I would blame him and also myself for killing my baby. I won't be seeing him again anyway so what he doesn't know won't hurt him.
DH understands some of the worry, but not all. All I get from anyone is "don't stress or you could hurt the baby". Well, darn it, I know that, but how am I not supposed to worry? I knew I would be a bit of a basket case, but I didn't realize how much of one. Lord have mercy.post #389 of 51410/20/11 at 9:46am
Hi guys. I am with you on the cloud of worry. Manna, like you, every ultrasound picture is for the memory box at this point. I'm glad my new OB gave me a welcome packet that included an envelope marked "ultrasound pictures", so we already have a place to keep them - the worst was finding DS2's ultrasound pix in a couple of different places (like DH's desk at home) after we lost him. So, I feel like at least I won't have THAT surprise this time.
I just hate we are all going through this. I also hate what Milk has to face. And I'm still hoping Zubeldia doesn't have to, and her bean holds on. I feel so much for everyone's loss, past and present, since I've been through it too. It's SO true that people who haven't had a loss cannot possibly understand the strain emotionally this can take.
My DH, too, understands but doesn't at the same time. He's nervous of course. But now that we're at this stage, he's really trying hard to get me to "just relax" and "be happy for this pregnancy". I really wish I could. Of course, he talks about how the stress can affect the pregnancy - thanks, I KNOW, already. I know he means well but he doesn't fully understand - he's not the one carrying the bean, you know?post #390 of 51410/20/11 at 10:04am
Just a quick check in -
Corgi, Manna- I think we are all feeling pretty similar....it just sucks that we can't enjoy our pregnancies. I made a list and just look at the small victories...I haven't thought ahead to June yet. I don't even want a due date because I can remember the due dates from each baby that I lost.... I think we are just protecting ourselves from the possible heartache, but nothing in life is really guarateed...ladies try to just enjoy each day that you are pregnant and thriving. I know it's hard, but all we can do is wait, pray and hope for the best.
Zub- Ok, so according to my book 6mm would put you in the 7 week range......it says 5mm-13mm is in the 7 week range...anyway - I wanted to send you huge hugs! I'm sorry for the stress, I still want to hope for you though. I'm sooooooooooo sorry. Keep us posted.
AFM- My scan is at 3pm...2 more hours to wait.post #391 of 51410/20/11 at 10:10am
Stacey, I'll be thinking about you at your scan!!! (:
Zub: I remember telling someone a while back that I would be more worried about a lower heart rate and a 'good' measurement than a higher heart rate and a 'small' measurement. Especially if they're measured in mm at this point, it all depends on the technique of the u/s tech what measurment they get. In fact, I think they're supposed to measure like five times and then average it. I know I saw 6wks 2 days and 6wks 6days both flash up on the screen when they did my u/s Tuesday. I think she measured at least four times.
siiiiggggghhhhhhh........post #392 of 51410/20/11 at 10:43ampost #393 of 51410/20/11 at 10:45am
Oh Zubeldia- Wish you had news that warmed your heart. Thinking of you and hoping you are ok. I'm hoping and praying that your little babe is healthy and going to make it!
I am still so sick. I have a call out to an acupuncturist and an energy worker. My husband is leaving town today. He isn't around much anyhow but not being here at all will be very hard. At least my daughter is learning how to help out more.
Thinking of you all! -Violetpost #394 of 51410/20/11 at 10:52am
I just wanted to pop in and see what was going on with my ladies . I am so sorry that you all have the dark cloud looming overhead. i wish that i had some magical spell to take the uncertainty away. I know that there is nothing any of you can do to make things turn out one way or another. I feel like we have no control over so in my opinion i say just be happy with everyday that you have our baby and take it one day at a timepost #395 of 51410/20/11 at 11:18amQuote:Originally Posted by zubeldia
Thanks, both. I am definitely 7 weeks 3 days (no late implantation for me since I got a BFP at 9dpo). HB was fine at 129, but only measured 6mm - which is just over 6 weeks, I think. This is very similar to my last m/c. I went back 3 weeks in a row hoping things would 'catch up'. I just wish this was over. I have blood work at 11:30 and waiting for my Dr to call me. I feel fairly hopeless. God knows how I will manage this and work at the same time. Last time was during the summer so I didn't have to deal with people, now I have appointments coming out of my ears.
*hugs* I wish that I could take away this worry from everyone. It made this pregnancy so different from my first. When I went in for a viability scan with this pregnancy, the sac was several days smaller than the embryo. I was worried, but the tech did say that HB is more important than the size measurement. There is always a bit of a margin of error between the machine's capabilities and the individual tech. By 8 weeks things were completely normal. My best friend was supposed to be due 4 days behind me. Her viability scan said that the baby was nearly a week and a half behind, with no measurable HB. Sure enough, two weeks later things were completely normal and measurements were on track. She's still four days behind me with her EDD.
All of you ladies are in my thoughts and prayers. I go in tomorrow at around 11 PST for the anatomy scan. I've had scans at 6, 8, and 16 weeks, but I still have some fear that something is wrong. I think that I am trying to protect myself from hurt if something is wrong, though logically I know things are probably fine. We get to bring in a DVD+rw to take video home, so I'm excited for DD to see it when she gets back from Disneyland. We got a really freaky view of his face at 16 weeks because he was head down and snug against the uterus. I'm kind of hoping that they flip over to 3D for a second during the scan and we can see his face better. Those cavernous features on the gender scan looked like a baby shaped jack-o-lantern.post #396 of 51410/20/11 at 1:15pm
Zub- How are you? I am still hoping for the best for you....HUGS!!!!!!
Camera - Good luck tomorrow! Will you find out the gender?
AFM- My u/s was good. I measured 7 weeks and 5-6 days, so almost 8 weeks. OB said the heartbeat was normal, didn't give me a number. Okay, my EDD is June 3rd:)post #397 of 51410/20/11 at 1:17pmpost #398 of 51410/20/11 at 1:22pmpost #399 of 51410/20/11 at 1:24pm
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