Expecting our RAINBOW babies - graduates of "hoping, healing & conceiving again" tread 2011 - Page 5

[MegEliz]

Love catching up on all you guys - I am officially a lurker but believe I will be screamin' my head off when i become an actual member! Glad to hear you are all doing so well!

[CorgiMommy]

I am here as I really need some pick me up.

I am really down in the dumps - 

I just got sent 25 photographs of my cousin (who I did not even know was pregnant) , at a pregnancy photo shoot last week, with the subject line, "Her baby is only a week older than yours!"

It hurt seeing her big pregnant belly, it hurt so much that her baby is due in 9 weeks, and what hurt more than all that was a photo of just her belly with a ribbon on and a note saying - don't open till December 2011.  Ag I know its stupid but I can't stop crying, It is so unfair!!!

Sorry I know this should be a happy space, but I don't know where I can say what any more.

[thecountrymouse]

So, I just went to planned parenthood to get a test done to send to insurance.  The test was negative.  But I have had three positive tests here at home, the last one was this morning.  So annoying.  The clinician who gave me the test told me that it is very early for their tests to work.  According to my cycle, today would be the first day that a test would work.  Annoying!  I am going to post a pic of one of my tests so all of you can ooh and ahh.  -Violet

[thecountrymouse]

Oh CorgiMommy- that is very very sad :(

[Gemmine]

just peeking in to say MAnna, I am such a doofus! When you posted your first test in the HHCA thread I said I couldn't see the line but everyone else can so yay right? I thought you were using the tests that give you a 'plus' sign when you're pregnant--those are the only blue dye tests I've seen! So when you posted this one I'm like....hmmm...I still don't see a line MAnna then I glanced over to the helpful instructions on the side and saw that a line PERIOD means you're pregnant! Don't mind me, I'll just be going now.

corgi:  why would they send that to you with that subject line??

[thecountrymouse]

[M Anna]

Um, Violet? That is a LINE! Nevermind about their goofy tests - you're pregnant! You can always go back later. I have to go somewhere to get my test done "officially" too for insurance. I haven't done it yet.

Corgi: I tried posting earlier but my internet went out (AGAIN!! GRR!). What in H-E-double hockey sticks did they put that in the subject line for??!?!?!? That is MASSIVELY insensitive!! I am SO, so sorry you had to see that. How horrible. Sending you big squishy hugs!  And you can tell us that here! Good heavens, woman! We're here for support!

Gem, I always knew you were such a "special" person! LOL! I just figured you were looking at it on your phone and it wasn't very clear. [BTW, I think that quilt should get to you by tomorrow or Saturday - I will be squealing with excitement if you get a BFP right when you're getting it! (Note: if you don't, you're still going to get one soon so you're STILL going to need it!)]

I don't know if anyone else feels this way, but I'm alternately so excited I want to tell everyone and start wearing a big t-shirt that says "baby on board" or something else innane, or else I'm feeling a twinge and thinking "well, here we go, miscarriage time." Ugh.

Remember those happy innocent days?

[cameragirl]

I haven't checked this forum lately, but congratulations, ladies! I miscarried on 5/28, and got pregnant just a few weeks later. I'm expecting a boy on March 11th, 2012. The first trimester was tough emotionally. I was still grieving, and it was hard to get excited about this pregnancy. Luckily, I felt the baby early. We also had an ultrasound this week to find out the sex, and that made it feel so much more real to us. I was so happy to see all of his parts there, looking healthy. We still have the anatomy scan in a few weeks, but I feel so much better now.

[slshoe128]

Zub- I may have to try that shake, sounds great!  I have a juicer that I used to use all the time and want to get it back out, do you have any good juicing recipes?

AFM- Got my results from my 2nd beta - it was 999, so it doubled, yay. One thing to check off the long list....I go for a 3rd beta on Monday, not sure why she spaced that one out further..ahhh, the stress of waiting. If my 3rd beta is good, I will have my "verification u/s" on Oct. 11th. Anyone else ready for Thanksgiving to be here? haha! Ok, better yet, Easter or hey, why not,  JUNE!!!!!

[zubeldia]

Violet, nice line!

Oh, Corgi, I am so, so sorry. What were they thinking? Big hugs

Camera, thanks for stopping by! So glad things are going well! I wish I was in the March DDC still but it's good to know that there is life post m/c.

Gem, seriously, woman, if yuo don't see a BFP tomorrow I will indeed eat my hat!

MAnna, I feel EXACTLY like that at times. The fear is so intense, though.

Stacey, I cannot wait until Thanksgiving! Although it will be crazy as we're supposed to be moving around that time, too.. but, October can not come and go fast enough, though! Stacey, those numbers are fantastic! Things are really looking good!!! I will have to dig out some old juicing recipes and post here. I don't juice these days, I just whiz everything up in the blender!

Meg

Well, I am very behind at work. I spent the entire day googling things I should not, and now I'm going to have to spend my weekend marking essays. I did meet DH before I picked up DS from nursery and we shared a veggie burger and fries (oh, fries are my total pregnancy love!). I rarely eat them but darn, they felt good. I did do an hour of yoga this evening with DS and my two dogs helping! I am going to try and run tomorrow. I feel very conflicted about exercising. obviously I'm not 'training' but I'm just trying to find a balance.

How is everyone feeling?

[zubeldia]

PS - I just restarted my pregnancy blog. I started it when I was pregnant before but only wrote two posts... I'm going to try and keep up with it.

http://threeplusonehope.wordpress.com/

[M Anna]

Thanks for the link, Zub! I just visited! (I'm a little jealous since I can't announce yet!)

[zubeldia]

This is mostly an anonymous blog.. I mean you could probably track down it's me, but no one knows about it except you lot! I won't even think about announcing it on my proper blog until at least some reassuring scans (hopefully!).

[cameragirl]

I have a blog, and posted the ultrasound video. The link is http://jillianjordan.blogspot.com/. I think that for me, the serenity prayer helped a lot. I sent up my worries and tried to not focus on them. Easier said than done, I know. It was harder to bond with the baby, though. I felt so disconnected. My husband had a bit of an easier time emotionally, but he felt disconnected as well. I know that we're not 100% out of the woods, but everything looks good so far. I'll keep all of you in my prayers. Here's to sticky babes!

[M Anna]

Gah!!

I was following along with your blog for a good long while!! I didn't know that was you!!

I stopped several weeks ago when I broke down and couldn't look at any more pregnancy blogs. I pulled yours up and saw the announcement and lost it (it was like #3 that day or something). I think the fact that I was trying and trying and trying and it happened for you so quickly just did me in. Sorry - no offense! I started gradually adding pregnant blogs back in over the past week.

Well, even though I was sad, I was happy that you were pregnant and hoped it would go well - and so far it has!

Nifty! Small world...

[cameragirl]

Originally Posted by Matushka Anna 

Gah!!

I was following along with your blog for a good long while!! I didn't know that was you!!

I stopped several weeks ago when I broke down and couldn't look at any more pregnancy blogs. I pulled yours up and saw the announcement and lost it (it was like #3 that day or something). I think the fact that I was trying and trying and trying and it happened for you so quickly just did me in. Sorry - no offense! I started gradually adding pregnant blogs back in over the past week.

Well, even though I was sad, I was happy that you were pregnant and hoped it would go well - and so far it has!

Nifty! Small world...

Oh, honey, I totally understand. We had to deal with infertility with DD and Avalon's pregnancies. So many around me were getting pregnant with almost no trying, and there we were month after month with negative tests. I was always happy for them, but it stings a little. I am so happy that God has blessed you with another little life, and I pray that this one is able to hang around and grow into a healthy, strong baby.

[M Anna]

Me too! (Thanks for understanding...)

[thecountrymouse]

Oh Bloggers- I read your blogs.  You two are beautiful!    and those kids are cute!  

Tomorrow morning I am going to the pregnancy center, first thing in the morning, for another pregnancy test.  It's an a long complicated story, but I have to have proof of pregnancy by tomorrow otherwise I loose my pregnancy coverage and have to reapply.  I am thinking of getting some blood work done, then going back on Monday to make sure my numbers are rising.

 I am sooooo exhausted and I can smell EVERYTHING.  I am just barely a month along.  When did you all start to have symptoms?  Three weeks after conceiving my daughter, I started throwing up and I was this tired.  With my miscarriage I didn't have much morning sickness or exhaustion, a little but nothing compared to when I was pregnant with my daughter.  

 The first day of my last period was Sept 1st or 2nd.  According to "the wheel" I am due June 10th.  But an online calculator gave me a due date of June 3rd.  Any input on that, comparing your last period with mine?  

Hope you all are doing well!  Sending you all positive thoughts!  -Violet

[M Anna]

My LMP was Aug 31st, I O'd Sept 11th and am due June 3rd. According to LMP I'd be due more like June 6th, but I O'd early this month. Maybe increased trips to bathroom, otherwise no symptoms.

My coverage died months ago! I have to start all over (I have to use the state maternity Medicaid, sigh.). I'm going to see if I can get in with the regular OB for a pregnancy test for the application so I don't have to go back to the health dept. That's where they told me he had no hb and I just can't set foot in that place ever again.

[thecountrymouse]

Thanks Matushka!  I ovulate early in my cycle.  But I don't chart.  Sounds like we are a day or a few days apart!  Wow!  I am using pregnancy only Medical.  I have insurance which I pay TONS of money for but maternity is not covered.  Pretty lame as far as all the money I put out for insurance, but I was treated like a queen with the pregnancy only Medical this last time around.  I'm sorry that you have to start over with all that paperwork and I really hope you don't have to go to the health dept.  -Violet