I know that's a kind of odd thing to say - but I do totally feel like this. I have 2 kids. GOOD kids. I don't just say that because I'm mom. Both get good grades, do well in school, have good friends, and basically do what they are asked. Minus the dumb kid stuff - rooms not clean, leaving a towel on the floor, waiting til the last possible minute to get chores done - they aren't bad kids.
My BF is great with them. He doesn't have his own children and has very little experience with kids. There are times though, when I feel like I cant' go to him to gripe - you know, "parental griping" - because he doesn't understand i"m just venting.
There are days when i feel like he's picking on the kids, or the kids are picking on him and both put me in the middle. I know my daughter will "work" the system.
there are just days I feel pulled and tugged and yanked and smushed and poo'd on.
I want to grab all three and go, "DO YOU REALIZE I'M THE ONLY ONE IN THIS HOUSEHOLD WHO IS TRYING RIGHT NOW???"
Then other days I watch them playing and joking from the kitchen and think, "damn I've got it good".
The other issue is since the CS order came out about 6 mos ago - their dad has gone MIA. He's not even tried to see them. I had to force him to see them on Father's day.
I feel like I'm stuck in the middle trying to keep all the boats afloat most days. :\