First of all: I am Austrian, living in Austria and married to an American husband....
Jake was born completely healthy in an unmedicated vaginal birth, the best I ever had. He was very content with the world and himself. An expert breastfeeder and a big and happy boy. Lots of people commented on his buddha like nature.
He got his first round of shots DTPP HiB and Hep B at 3 months and was not feeling well after the shots. He had a fever and a cold and was whiney. I went back to the doctor but he said, it was something he got from his older sister.
Three months later he got his first booster shot and the doctor vaccinated him even though he had a runny nose, saying that a virus without a fever was no reason not to vaccinate. I felt that this was not ok but did not have the nerve to say that I wanted to hold off on the booster.
After the shot he was merely a bit more tired and whiney and his cold got worse. Three days after the shot my DH left for a bachelor party and I went to a vacation farm with the kids and my sister and her boyfriend who were helping me with the kids.
My daughter wanted to go to see the horses and asked me to put her pants on after I had just changed Jake’s diaper. When I turned around he must have turned over and fell off the bed he was lying on (48cm high – this is about 19 inches).
He cried and I could not calm him. My sister tried and he fell asleep. When he woke up a half hour later he threw up. We took him to the nearest doctor who could not keep him awake.
This doctor called the helicopter and Jake and I were flown to the nearest children’s hospital with a NICU.
Once we were there it was determined by CT scan that he had hemorrhaged into his vertricular system (the spaces within the brain that make sure the brain does not get insured by sneezing or other movement). I was told that he would be fine and they just needed to put a shunt in to drain the blood.
He was taken into surgery. I was all by myself, my husband trying to get a flight to where I was. Hours later I was told I could go see him, he was going to wake up soon. But he didn’t. He was rushed back to get an MRI as he could not breath on his own and it was discovered that the bleeding had spread to the base of his brain where the center for breathing, heartbeat and all basic function is located. There was more surgery, part of his brain was removed and we were told dur to the extreme swelling of his brain, he had a 50% chance to survive. Four painful days later he was proclaimed brain dead and we held him while he died in our arms.
Even before he died the hospital had called the police and contacted the state’s attorney because they said that I must have been lying as a short fall from a bed could not have caused this terrible damage. After we were told that he was brain dead we were interrogated and it was determined that I must have shaken Jakey violently. I was charged with manslaughter.
My family was questioned, child services were sent to my house. Luckily I am a lawyer and had another lawyer defending me right away.
The judge decided to wait for the coroner’s report before deciding what to do. It took the coroner painful 7 months to give his report.
He determined that the location of the hemorrhage was inconsistant with shaken baby syndrom and that Jake died of an „act of fate“.
At this point I was 24 weeks pregnant with my third. And I could not live with this diagnosis. I talked to the coroner and he could not give me more information as his job was to see whether I was guilty or not, not to find out why Jake died. He could only tell he that his brain was „pudding“ and that he had never seen anything like it before.
I wanted to have my own autopsy conducted but there suddenly was no material left. While the investigation was going on I stared my own research. I talked to many doctors.
And here is what I found out:
Brain issues in newly vaccinated persons occure between 4 and 14 days of the shot.
All the other children who died in Germany after the same shot (7 cases) has brain involvement and almost liqufied brains.
The Hep B vaccine is known to cause brain problems and brittle blood vessels in suseptible people.
Today I believe that Jake suffered from a swollen brain, the fall caused his hurt brain.
He was a beautiful and happy boy and my family will never be complete without him.
Thanks for listening/reading!