Okay, I know I am being terrible and I don't know why acknowledging it makes me not feel so bad, but it does. So my DH has been gone for 2 weeks for work. Last weekend he was at a conference in the town he grew up in where his family lives. So even though some of the time was spent working, most of it was socializing. That is fine. It does put a lot more pressure on me when I am home with the 2 kiddos with no help for 2 weeks, but it was fine.
So he comes home last night and he is sick - like sinus infection, pukey, cold sick. I tried really hard not to be mad because I know he doesn't want to be sick, but I couldn't help it. I mean, come on - can I not get a break?
He goes to the dr this morning for a regular appt and she wants him to go to the hospital because it could be his gall bladder.I really hope that it is not his gall bladder because I don't want him to be sick or have surgery and it would be terrible for him to go through this, but now I am going to be a big baby and cry about how it is affecting me - please bear with me and don't judge.
First of all, this dr is always ordering tests that costs us a ton of money (our insurance is terrible). Second, I was supposed to get together with some friends that I haven't seen in a year today, so I had to cancel that. I was supposed to get together with some friends for coffee tonight (without kids), but I may have to cancel that. I just need a break. I guess that is all I am saying. I know there is nothing that he can do about it and I know that he does not want this to happen, but I just need a break. I am not talking about a weekend away or anything like that - I am talking about a couple days where I am not the go-to person for everyone. I just want to float around for a couple days and not make any decisions.
The other thing that is so frustrating is that we have a lot to do this weekend to get the house ready before the cold and snow hits us. The weekends coming up are crazy busy and there will be no time to do what we need to do this weekend (my DH travels during the week and is only home on weekends).
Thanks for listening. I know that my problems are tiny compared to other people and I know that I am being terrible, but it does feel good to get it off my chest so I can be the caring, supportive wife that I know my DH needs.