Bitter Sushi Ladies, October 2011 - Page 3

[LessTraveledBy]

Read through everything but have a little moment, only. We got THE call some days ago and now there is someone very special living with us... How we love this little one, for however long this babe ends up staying. Lots of emotions. I have been soooo busy and it has been wonderful. Yet, I am only at the very beginning of trying to process it all. I really miss the whole boob thing I was used to with dd. It is HARD work caring for a formula fed baby. 

Thanks so much for all the info about Clomid. 6 months, max, sounds great. How we will manage the SA with this little one around (and me sleeping way too little), I have no idea.

Thinking of you all!

[Smilesarefree]

Monkey - Thanks for the new thread and for the clean up, you are more ambitious than me!  Glad you are feeling better.

Milk8shake and Praha - Hoping hoping hoping for you both.

LTB - I am so excited and happy for you!!!!  I hope that things are going well, you have no idea how long the little one will be staying with you?  That must be tough but I am sure that you and your family are showering them with love!

[Kinza]

Sol y Paz:  Welcome!  Sorry I missed you earlier.

LTB, congratulations!  I'm so glad you finally have a baby in the house again, even if it's only for a short time.  You'll be great at this, I just know it.

Milkshake, it sounds like you are starting to feel hopeful, so joyful congrats to you. 

Thanks everyone for the sympathy on the IVF drug crisis.  I *think* the Lupron will get here on Friday, so DH is going to work from home that day.  That's the plan, anyway.  It appears that all the other drugs are going to be necessary (my doctor's office never did call me back, but they did contact the pharmacy for an urgent order), so I just had to pay for the Lupron/syringes.  Still, very stressful. 

[sweetest77]

Praha - Congratulations on the BFP!

MilkShake - glad to hear you are feeling a little more confident!  I'm praying this baby sticks around for you. 

LTB - So happy to hear your news!!! Congratulations!

[monkeyscience]

Busy day again!

Kinza - Glad you got the medicine crisis straightened out, but sorry for the stress!!

beautifulnm - I haven't heard of either of the two books you asked about. Will have to look them up next time I need a book. (I still have 3 or 4 from the library, plus one I'm in the middle of.)

praha - No fun about your dd's allergies! At least she's at an age where she's old enough to understand them, even if it probably sucks from a social point of view.

CCAG - Bahia rings some sort of bell in my head, but I don't know why. I might have had another friend that lived there as a missionary, or maybe my Brazilian friends were talking about it? Not sure. (I know tons of people who were missionaries in Brazil, plus two of my own brothers, plus we have family friends who are Brazilian, so a lot of things about Brazil ring some sort of bell for me!) Hope you got your temp rise! Also... THE CONE OF SHAME!! Sorry, I can't help but think of Up whenever I think of the dog-cone things.

milk8shake - Yay for heartbeat!! Sorry your little bean is measuring where you'd like him/her to, but the heartbeat is good sign! I will move you to our grad list! Do you at least have a guesstimated month of arrival? May or June? Let me know, and still praying for you!

LTB - YAY!! How exciting!! Keep us updated when you have the chance, but it sounds like you have your hands full!

AFM, it seems like it's two steps forward and one step back in recovery. I was coughing so badly last night I ended up staying on the couch for hours so dh could get some much-needed sleep. And I felt like crap this morning. But overall, I'm still getting better. I hope this can count for annual winter illness for this year! Other than that, not a lot going on. I've been very... hmm... not sure how to put this delicately... amorous? lately, so I'm hopeful maybe my body is trying to produce a baby, but it's probably just another fluke symptom. :P Also, we got a rough estimate to get some work on our car done yesterday, and it actually sounds like it's going to be really reasonable. Hopefully it will be fixed tomorrow, and I can have one less financial worry on my mind. Oh, and I tried to make homemade rolls for the first time by myself today, after making them with SIL on Sunday. EPIC.FAIL. Sigh. Maybe next time.

[wissa19]

Milkshake -  So, wonderful to hear good news from you.  FYI - My little guy measured like 2 weeks off at first visit and they said I was just wrong about the dates...However, he was born when I said he would be.  We will all still being thinking about you even though your moving on to the other thread.  Of course, you could say we will glad to be rid of you!! ;)

LTB -  Whoohoo! So very glad you got your foster baby!! It's long story, but I had to put my little guy on formula. The easiest way I found to handle bottles was to wash and fix enough bottles for the day in the morning.  Just put them in the fridge and get them out when you need them.  My little guy would take them cold straight from the fridge...so if you can skip the bottle warming part it makes life much easier. ;)  

[lilmom]

LTB!!! I am thrilled for you!! how exciting and wonderful! I also could not breastfeed..I was so ill while pregnant with DS that I had no milk. So, we did formula and I cried every day the first couple of weeks, then I realized I could hold him to my breast and keep him close so that he was "bottle nursing". We bonded and it was as good as it could have been, with the circumstances. And yes, it's work. But you will get through it. That precious baby is so lucky to have you.

Milkshake!! I love that you got good news too! I wonder if maybe your dates were just off. At any rate, good heartbeat is awesome! We're all pulling for you and the bubs!

Kinza- I'm glad the drug situation is getting straightened out, even though it's been so stressful.

Monkey- I really hope you get feeling better fast! Sorry about the rolls incident. I hate when I try to bake something and it doesn't work out. Keep trying!

[praha]

Milkshake:  I was so delighted to hear about your ultrasound.  The heartbeat sounds perfect.  I think you're right about the dates/implantation.  Awesome, awesome, awesome.

Sol y Paz:  Welcome!

LTB:  It's wonderful to read about you being busy with a baby.  The little one is so lucky to have you right now.

Monkeyscience:  Sorry to hear that your dinner rolls didn't work out.  Last year I found a super-duper easy, failproof bread recipe that gets lots of compliments (here:  http://steamykitchen.com/168-no-knead-bread-revisited.html ).  It's a crusty bread, rather than soft dinner rolls, and you need a covered dutch oven-type pot for it.  Oh, if you try it -- I use parchment or waxed paper instead of a towel when letting it rise.  Or I did, before finding out about my daughter's wheat allergy. 

AFM:  Got news on the second beta at the end of the day:  144, which gives me a doubling time of about 32 hours.  Whew.  I don't go back in until the 21st, when I'll get an ultrasound and hopefully see a heartbeat.  I'm temporarily feeling very relieved and happy.  I'm sure that the anxiety level will pick up again as the 21st approaches.  Can I be added to the BFP list?  I've moved on from the 2ww to the 12ww.  My tentative due date is June 11.

Thank you all so much for your support.  I was "outed" at dinner with friends tonight and explained that I'm still feeling super tentative and almost superstitious.  I haven't been secretive about our problems. . . .  In fact, I may have been a little TMI about the losses this year within our limited circle.  I just felt like they mattered so much to me and I wasn't going to hide them.  If any other family member had died, I would have admitted that. . . I didn't want to cloak an already difficult time with weird evasions.  Anyway, tonight a friend asked how far along I was and then said, "Four weeks?  I think that's a safe time to tell people, right?"  And I had to say, "I hope so, but. . . ."  I really wish I didn't feel the need to qualify this good news all the time.

[lilmom]

Praha- Great news on your beta!!!! That's wonderful! So sorry you got outed though. I think we all understand how private and personal this can all feel. And how frustrating to feel like you can't just be excited, you have to be on edge just in case, and qualifying everything. Hang in there!!! We are all pulling for you and baby Praha!!!!

[Sol_y_Paz]

Thanks for all the welcomes praha, Kinza, lilmom, and Milk8shake

Originally Posted by praha 

Thank you all so much for your support.  I was "outed" at dinner with friends tonight and explained that I'm still feeling super tentative and almost superstitious.  I haven't been secretive about our problems. . . .  In fact, I may have been a little TMI about the losses this year within our limited circle.  I just felt like they mattered so much to me and I wasn't going to hide them.  If any other family member had died, I would have admitted that. . . I didn't want to cloak an already difficult time with weird evasions.  Anyway, tonight a friend asked how far along I was and then said, "Four weeks?  I think that's a safe time to tell people, right?"  And I had to say, "I hope so, but. . . ."  I really wish I didn't feel the need to qualify this good news all the time.

About your sharing and being outed.  I am not good at talking about my experiences with others like you are. 

I am really excited for you and hope every week is good from here on out.  

Originally Posted by Milk8shake 
 Feel free to tell us a bit more about your story if you like? 

Sure, married to a wonderful husband who would be a fantastic dad.  We both want kids but would be pleased as punch with even just one healthy kid.  We haven't had any testing.  I have been taking prenatal vitamins for years, keep my diet very clean, don't drink, don't smoke, and try hard to keep a healthy weight for the best chances of having a happy healthy baby.  I have had the desire for many years now to be a mom, about 7 years, but we haven't been actively TTC that entire time.  

Edited by Sol_y_Paz - 10/8/11 at 9:56pm

[monkeyscience]

Praha - You've been added! Sorry for the delay - busy times lately!

sol_y_paz - Thanks for telling us a little more about you. Are you planning on doing diagnostic testing at some point, or are you planning to just continue the healthy living and see what happens? Either way, I wish you luck!

AFM, I have been very grouchy the past two days. :P But I am very excited that we are finally getting some much-needed rain in Houston! Also, I got to feel one of my little nephews kick my hand this week! It was the weirdest, coolest thing. I can't imagine what that would feel like from the inside! I've never asked SIL to touch her belly, after reading on here how much some people hate it, but since her sister was feeling the babies kick, I thought I might ask. I didn't want to bug SIL too much, though, so once I felt one kick, I gave up on the other. Plus it's kind of weird to be squishing someone else's belly. I am excited that she's at 28 weeks... every week she's still pregnant  is exciting for me, even if she's getting sort of sick of it. And I found a super-cute dress for my niece's first birthday this week. At least I have other cute babies to shop for and think about, even if I don't have my own.

[toothfairy2be]

CD1 today, I'm taking a break from the boards, just didn't want anyone to think I'd abandoned. I'll be thinking of you all.

[monkeyscience]

cbaa - Noooo!! Take whatever time you need! We'll be here when you're ready to come back.

[lilmom]

cbaa-  we will be rooting for you even while you're away!!! So sorry for CD1.

[Milk8shake]

Monkey - DP and I are constantly surfing the net and patrolling for super awesome and super cute outfits and presents for our nieces and nephews (most of whom aren't actually blood relatives!)

I mostly love it, although sometimes I find stuff that I would just like to keep.  I live for the day when I have a baby of my own to dress up!

LTB - I don't think I got to say congrats on your little visitor, I hope it is all going well. 

Everyone else,

I've just come back from a weekend training for my SANDS group, to learn how to be a support meeting facilitator.  It was really good, but I was wrecked when I got home from the airport last night, and I had to get up at (gasp!) 5:15am this morning for work.  Now that was a struggle.  But, I'm still around and reading along and thinking of you all.

[wissa19]

Sorry no personals, I'll get them later though!

  Would just like to say today is CD1, well it actually started last night. (but my RE's office says if it starts after 5 pm count the next day as day1).  Anyway, it started about when I thought it would, so do I know my body or what (especially considering I really don't think I had any type of O)!  I guess the good news is that I had virtually no spotting and no back pain until AF actually started.  So, I guess the surgery did do something.  For you ladies that deal with spotting before AF you know what I mean. ;)

I really wanted to try a letrozole cyce this month, but DH is going be out of town around the time of O.  He will skipping town on CD 15 and I always O late -- on clomid I O'ed around CD16.  So, I would really like to do something to strengthen O this month. Any ideas?   Ever since the PCOS dx I went to a low sugar /low carb. diet and I lost some wieght and my cycles shorten, but no baby.  So, then I got them to give me metformin.  Cycles been around 29 to 31 days. I've lost 20 lbs, so now I have the problem of losing too much wieght as I was not overweight to start.  Clearly, I can't keept losing wieght, but to gain weight I have to eat the stuff that spikes my sugar.   (I know most people would like to have this problem, if only it came without the IF issues)

I just don't know what else I can do.  I've thought about maybe trying royal jelly?  Any experience with that?

[monkeyscience]

milk8shake - So I had to Google it, but that's really cool that you're going to be able to facilitate support group meetings for people who've lost babies. I hope that doing that will help you feel like at least something good has come from your losses. Please check in a lot - I want to know you're doing okay! (Or if you're not!) I am antsy for the results of your next ultrasound, though I'm sure you're antsy-er than I am! I haven't allowed myself to stockpile anything for a baby at all, except the blanket I made when I was 13 or so, and the baby sling my mom made for me when I was doing a school project with a 'flour baby'. Back then I had no idea there was a whole parenting movement involved with babywearing - it was just a logical thing to wear a baby when your hands were busy with other things!

AFM, I am theoretically 4 DPO. Yes, you heard it right - it seems my body may have ovulated twice in two months. Honestly, though, with the sickness and everything, I still can't really bring myself to believe it. I thought for sure my temp would be down again today. It wasn't, but I didn't sleep well, so I don't trust it. It's higher by 2/10ths than my highest not-sleeping-well temp, but I still don't believe it. And even if I did O, I can't really bring myself to believe I could be pregnant. We DTD 1 day before O and 1 day after, plus 3 and 4 days before O, but I just don't have a lot of faith in my body right now. Getting pregnant is something that happens to other people. Plus I am just afraid to hope. I'm afraid to be devastated like I was last time, when I was so sure it was our time. I'm also upset because I was looking at FF statistics on when people get BFPs, and they say only 10% of people get a BFP at 10 DPO. The problem is, I'm pretty sure I only have a 10-day LP. (FF thinks it's 12, but I disagree). So if I don't get a BFP by 10 DPO, that basically means I'm out of the running. I thought TCOYF said that a 10-day LP is enough for a pregnancy to implant, but now I'm worried. I have progesterone suppositories from my medicated cycle that I didn't use, and I'm wondering if I should use them now. But I only have enough refills to get me through 3 weeks, so then I'd have to find someone to prescribe them to me or I'd probably lose the pregnancy (if there even was a pregnancy) by stopping them. So, contrary to expectations, having (maybe) O'd has actually made me feel worse, not better. I wish I could be at peace with just not charting, and then I wouldn't have to worry about stuff like this. But if I didn't temp, I'd just think I was pregnant every 3 days and waste money testing.

On the good-ish news front, dh just called to say that we're actually going to be staying in Houston (home) for 2 weeks longer than we thought. So that's 2 weeks I don't have to spend living in a hotel and wondering what to do with myself. And 2 more weeks to potentially see doctors, which got put off because of me being sick. I still want my thyroid checked. Now, of course, I kind of want to see what happens with the TWW (not that it's really 2 weeks for me) before I go in to a doctor. ARRRRGHHH.

[monkeyscience]

Okay, add 'complete emotional basketcase' to my list of symptoms that point to ovulation.

[Milk8shake]

    Ovulation is awesome.  And I have to congratulate you for getting that much action in while you have been sick!

If I were you, I'd be jumping on the progesterone and worrying about the script in a couple of weeks. 

[lilmom]

Originally Posted by Milk8shake 

    Ovulation is awesome.  And I have to congratulate you for getting that much action in while you have been sick!

If I were you, I'd be jumping on the progesterone and worrying about the script in a couple of weeks. 

Monkey, YES, I agree. I'd go ahead and do the progesterone, and I'd see if your ob.gyn can get you more, or if not, go to the health food store and buy some natural progesterone if you can. And it's awesome you O'ed again!!! This is good news!

Wissa- so sorry for CD1. I have heard good things about royal jelly. In fact, one former BSL used it and got pg. It was quite a while back. But it worked for her and I keep meaning to try it but just haven't with all my other health drama going on. I think I might try it next month though along with the Clomid.

Milkshake- I'm so glad your training went well and you made it back safe and sound! Still cheering you and your sticky bean on!!!!!

AFM- DH has an interview either Thurs or Fri (TBD) for a job we are really hoping and praying he will get. This would be huge for us. Please, please if you are a praying person, please pray this will work out! It would be wonderful for our family, we'd get to go back to Dallas, and it would be quite a bit more money than he makes now, which would be great for us in so many ways, including the ttc journey! Not to mention, fertility docs there.