Queer Conceptions: October 2011 - Page 6

[kgulbransen]

MrsPP: that must have been scary! I would lean towards saying it's not a miscarriage. How far down the road from your AF due date were you? Some people experience chemical pregnancies and it's marked by a little heavier than normal bleeding and will happen in that their period is just a few days late. Otherwise, you might have just had a very thick lining and overall, just a different period. Throughout our lifetime our periods can be different (heavier or lighter) from time-to-time and that may have been your case. Also TTC, does a nice job overall of skewing things a bit. I can't remember if you were taking any hormones, especially estrogen to plump your lining or an HCG shot which also plumps the lining?

Yelle: I get you on the reconsideration thing. Many a time I've thought that I just can't go on anymore (and I've only been at it for about a year and a half). At some point it is okay to just throw the towel in and move on emotionally. Not that I want to encourage anyone to take on debt, but have you thought about taking out a loan for IVF? There are companies that specifically lend at lower rates for IVF. I just offer it up if the situation is that you don't have the money right at hand and if you did, you would move forward with IVF.

AFM: today is the due date of my first miscarriage. I am anxiously willing this day and week to be over so I can move on. We do start our inseminations again this Friday which is also anxiety producing but at least it's a forward moving prospect!

Krista

[csn75]

Mrs PP- my gosh!  I had the same thing happen to me but in a different situation-- was trying that new BC patch that was out a few years ago- and blood was everywhere after BDing with DW (sorry, TMI too).  Ill never forget the look of shock on DW's face!  Stopped the patch and never happened again.

All others- Happy Tuesday (any day it's not Monday is happy)!  As to my faint line- when I got home, it was no longer on the stick no matter how hard I looked.  I should have taken a picture to prove I wasn't crazy.  Took another test (two) and nothing.  This am, my temp went down (has been holding at 98.0, now 97.6-- still over the coverline tho).  I'm convinced AF will show tonight or tomorrow.   I refused to take the test this morning- wasn't in the mood for a BFN.  

Of course, there's always that voice in the back of my head saying "But AF hasn't shown, so there's still a very slim chance..."

Sigh.  

I dont mind the waiting and all, I understand I can't expect to conceive quickly but I'm worried about running out of money for all the swimmers/shipping etc.  Actually, we ran out long ago and have been putting the charges on our credit card.  Not very smart but what else can we do?  Turning 36 this week!!

Oh!  The iPhone!  It wont be out until Friday so... hope to have the weekend to play with it if I can get my hands on one!  Going out of town this weekend, at least I can drink and jump in the hot tub.  Have to look at the bright side of things!

[KSDoulaMama]

Well friends, it's kind of a squinter, but that second line is definitely there, yes? :) I woke up at 4:30 am today to tend to my daughter and let DW get a little bit of rest before she had to go to work. I settled her and then went back to bed, but couldn't sleep because my tummy was too queasy. I thought about getting up to eat something and then I thought... WAIT. I MUST be pregnant. Once DW got up, I POAS and got this beauty. It's a faint line, but it's a line! I have to say, I'm excited but it's not quite as earth-shattering of an experience as when I was pregnant with my own baby. ;) However, IP's are absolutely thrilled and not at all upset that I made them call me at 6am!

[carmen358]

Yeledov: Wow, you've been at this for so long. I'm so sorry you haven't achieved what you wanted when you set out. I hope your break is refreshing and that whatever you decide, you are all happy and at peace with your decision. And please keep us updated :) Although I hope none of us is here! ;)
 

MrsPP: That sounds crazy! I'm glad you're ok. You may have had a chemical pregnancy yes. My bleeding has been heavier than normal after the 2 I've had. That sounds VERY heavy though. If that's abnormal for you I would consider getting it checked out....that would freak me out. I'm not sure about timing as we use fresh.....but someone on here can help, I'm sure!

Krista: Big hugs to you on this day.
 

csn: I'm sorry your line didn't turn into more. You are not crazy...you may have had a chemical pregnancy. That is obviously what just happened to me this cycle (blood test to prove it). If that's what happened...that's very encouraging that you got pregnant!
KS: NO squinting required! HOORAY! I can imagine the IPs are over the moon! I hope your pregnancy goes well!!

Afm: Thanks for the kind words, everyone. It does make me feel better to know that people are listening to me on here. I truly appreciate it and it does help.

In other news, I had 15 vials of blood taken this morning! Yikes! The lab tech. said her record was 20 so unfortunately I didn't set a new record lol It was day 4 rather than day 3 (holiday here yesterday) but the RE said that would be fine. I didn't realize he was sending me for that many tests. He even sent me for the basic std testing that I had before starting ttc DD. I should have most of the results this afternoon. Some of them are sent out to another lab and aren't available online. I won't be able to do the HSG this cycle but I will do it next cycle. I've told KD we won't be trying this cycle but that we will try again in November. I forgot he has to be out of town for a week so I'm waiting to hear back on the dates...I hope it doesn't coincide with my O date! I'd hate to miss out on 2 tries.

I have a crazy busy week this week and then away for 2 weeks so I may not check in much. I'll try and keep up though. Good luck to everyone and talk to you all in November.

[csn75]

Congratulations!!
 

Originally Posted by KSDoulaMama 

Well friends, it's kind of a squinter, but that second line is definitely there, yes? :) I woke up at 4:30 am today to tend to my daughter and let DW get a little bit of rest before she had to go to work. I settled her and then went back to bed, but couldn't sleep because my tummy was too queasy. I thought about getting up to eat something and then I thought... WAIT. I MUST be pregnant. Once DW got up, I POAS and got this beauty. It's a faint line, but it's a line! I have to say, I'm excited but it's not quite as earth-shattering of an experience as when I was pregnant with my own baby. ;) However, IP's are absolutely thrilled and not at all upset that I made them call me at 6am!

[handerson003]

KS- CONGRATULATIONS YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CANT DO VEGGIES HERE BUT IM WAY HAPPY FOR U

[lisedea]

KS--Congrats!

Well...bad news for me. My blood work just came back with a high (15) FHS level. The only hope that I am hanging on to is the fact that I had a wacky last cycle. If that isn't the problem, however, then it means my TTC journey has come to an end.
Edited by lisedea - 10/11/11 at 6:33pm

[Vienna79]

Lisedea- I am so sorry to hear about your levels. I am not familiar with FHS, however I hope the situation is not as ominous as it sounds.

KS- Congratulations! You and the intended parents must be so excited.

AFM:  Well, still no period yesterday afternoon, so I used one of my internet cheapies.  I didn't see a line, so I walked away.  Several minutes later I walked by the bathroom, and decided to take a peek.  Sure enough, there was a line.  But it had been over the "allowed" 10 minute mark!  So I took two more, and these developed at about 11 minutes.  Since I didn't believe three tests, I waited until 0300 in the morning and took two more.  These had lines that came up at 7 minutes, although both were faint.  I took test number 6 at 0530, and I could barely see anything.  I was going crazy with these lines, so stopped at the drugstore on my way home from work and picked up an overpriced digital test.  I followed the direction, and sure enough after about 2 minutes...

[smilingsara]

wooo Vienna!!!!                                                                

[SwtRainbowBrite]

I thought I posted the other day but I think the PC ate it....

Dandylez: Thank you so much!

Desert: That is my wish for him as well, he has suffered for a very long time and he deserves to be able to leave this earth painlessly. And awww FD is so adorable! She looks like she had an amazing time, I understand her excitement I LOVE the zoo!

Csn:  Fingers crossed for you!

Yeledov: I am so sorry to hear that you are having to go through all of these things with KD. I am sending you lots of positive thoughts and Courage for the decision that works best for you and DP!

MrsPP: Yikes! I have a Friday the 13th massacre type period before and it scared the crap out of me! I am sorry to hear that you have so much going on, and I hope that things settle down soon so that you guys are able to get the BFP!

Krista: Sending you Love & Light for this very hard week.

KS: Congrats! I am sure the IPs will be thrilled!

Carmen: Those initial RE blood draws can be insane! When I first started on this journey my Ob/Gyn had me so an insane amount of testing and it resulted in like 15-20 vials of blood we took pics because there were so many lol! I am hoping that all of your lab work comes back normal, and that hopefully the key to what is causing your miscarriages is solved soon so that you can get that sticky BFP!

Lisdea:  I am so sorry to hear what you are going through... are there other options to explore?

Vienna: Congrats!

AFM: It has been a crazy roller coaster ride this week as well. So let's back track. We went in last Friday to do a follicle check and there was 1 lone follicle on the Left side (BOO!) the good news was that it was mature 21 follicle. DP & I both had an insane work schedule for Saturday and we feel like me working an 11hr day last cycle may have played a part in our BFN so we were given the green light to do the HcG trigger shot Friday night at 11:00 and we scheduled an IUI for Sunday at 10:00am. My biggest concern was that I was going to ovulate before Sunday, but that little eggie held on, and right on cue at 9:30am I began to feel cramping and by 10:30am we were having the IUI done. We went home & I laid on my left side all afternoon, I was also off Monday so I have just been relaxing in hope that the sperm & egg can get nice & acquainted. I was a little bummed that we were not able to get in 2 insems, but the RE's office does not believe in doing 2 IUIs, they also don't necessarily believe in Progesterone. When I brought it up to the RE on Saturday she didn't feel that there was scientific evidence that Progesterone would stop a m/c I disagree so we will be seeing our Naturopath for a prescription. Is it too late to start Progesterone? As far as my Grandfather he is still hanging in there for right now. I am still making plans to see him, but with the skyrocketing costs of airfare and TTC it has been difficult to find the additional funds to do so.

[DesertSunsets]

Wow!  Big stuff on the board today!  Major congratulations to KS and Vienna!  Hooray!!!!  

Lise, forgive me if I've forgotten something you mentioned in your medical history, but isn't high FSH levels correctable?  I thought with Clomid?  I'm not sure.  I certainly hope this isn't the end of the line for you. 

Yeledov, I'm so sorry about Bee.  I understand overcommitting, but to stop donating entirely?  I hope he's up for single well-timed inseminations.  I'm so sorry that this has been such a long and harrowing journey for you.  At this point I just hope you're able to reach a place of peace and happiness and acceptance, regardless of how you get there.  You're in my thoughts. 

Krista, I hope you're able to get through this week without too much pain.  My mother's advice is always, "Keep your chin to the sunshine."  Soon I hope you will get that STICKY pregnancy you've been waiting for.  Someone special is out there, biding his or her time.  

MrsPP, whoa!  Sorry about the Texas Chainsaw Massacre period, that sounds horrifying.  Good luck next cycle!  

Carmen, I hope you don't have to take two cycles off!  Thinking of you.  

Afu, we're at the end of 11 DPO.  Wanting to be hopeful, but nervous to get TOO hopeful.  Waiting...  

[Yeledov]

Thank you all for the wonderful supportive words. I'm trying to enjoy my ttc, especially since it means I'll be able to have a cocktail on my birthday in 10 days. If I wasn't on break I'd still be in my 2ww at that time. Trying to look on the bright side of things. We still haven't heard from our KD, Bee. This is less than comforting for our chances at continuing even single insems. However, I'm focusing on getting things set up for next years two IF cycles. 

Congrats to all the BFPs! YAY!

[lisedea]

Desert--Is it?? My FS made it sound like I had almost no chance of getting pregnant with that high of a level. I guess I don't know anything about fertility meds because I am a bit of an "anti-med" person and wanted things as natural as possible. However, at this point, I would do anything!!

Yeledov--I am so sorry! I really hate when things don't work out according to planned. We had some KD issues earlier this year...and decided that if we wanted things to happen as expected/planned, we had to go with an anonymous donor. Good luck!!

Vienna--Congrats!

More blood testing today (some other three letter abbreviation to check my ovarian reserve) and I will know more by Friday. Ugg...I have been so depressed and can't stop crying. Reading things online have NOT been helping me. Krista--do you know anything about this? You know so much about everything else, I wouldn't be surprised!!

[lisedea]

Krista--I also wanted to add that I am thinking about you during this time! Hang in there!!

[indigoscot]

lisedea - sorry to read of your fsh of 15.  it is indicative of early menopause but i believe they now think that amh (probably the blood test you are having now) is a much better method of telling how your egg reserve is.  fx that comes back at a better number.

do you have any signs/symptoms of early menopause?

there are some ivf clinics who will work with women with high fsh...i'm not sure that doing iuis will work for you.  :(

good luck!

g

[kgulbransen]

Congrats to the BFPs on the board! Awesome. Let's start a fall trend, shall we?

Lisdea: I know this is disappointing news initially, but the game ain't over yet. Indigo is right about an AMH test. That is a better indicator of egg reserve which is what you're really looking at. Plus, FSH ishould not be used as the only indicator. Also, just one shot of your FSH level on one given day cannot be the only thing they use as well. They need to look at how it fluctuates over a period of a few days. Since REs prefer to see FSH below 15, you're just on the border anyway and other things could be affecting it so you'll have to be patient and get more information.

Rainbow: I'm sorry things have been so confusing and muddled for you. I wish it were an easier process! Your RE is actually right in that there really isn't any proof that Progesterone works or is helpful. Many docs admit to giving it to patients almost for psychological purposes, knowing that it makes the patient feel like they are in control of something in a journey that is otherwise littered with being out of control. Interestingly, most all IVF clinics do it (mostly via shots) so if they're doing it, why aren't REs? I don't know why.

Having said that, there are tons of women on the Internet who swear that increasing their Progesterone levels helped them to get pregnant and stay pregnant. You should first start taking Progesterone on CDO1 to help support the level of Progesterone in your system to prepare the body for a possible embryo. Once you find out you're pregnant, you increase the dosage amount to help keep the levels high and to continue to support the pregnancy up through 12 weeks. In both of my pregnancies, nobody told me to increase my dosage but all docs say there is no way the lower dose of Progesterone was the reason for my miscarriages. I try not to think about it but I do plan on making them test my Progesterone levels when I find out I'm preg again. I don't know what your homeopathic will give you, but usually creams are the only thing given through non-prescription and they aren't terribly effective. Your body needs to absorb the Progesterone into the blood stream and creams take the longest to get to that point. Oral medication second. Sticking up your vajayjay, one of the most direct ways to get it. Or Progesterone shots which most IVF clinics prescribe.

AFM: just got back from my ultrasound. Still a little early to see good follies but I'm on my way and have a great lining which is a relief for me. We'll be incessantly inseminating this whole weekend.

Krista

[lisedea]

indigo--I don't think I have had any other signs besides my wacky last cycle. My cycles are normally 28-29 days with my charts showing ovulation around day 16-18. My last cycle was super messed up...only 21 days long without an LH surge (I always have a strong one for one or two days). My FS thinks that I had a cyst and that caused it (one that is now gone). Do you think that could have caused this high fsh level (as a fluke) or that this last cycle is an indicator of premature menopause? Blech. It is all too much for me to take right now.

[janandjesse]

hey, im new, Jan here. just wanted to introduce myself. i am 30, my husband (ftm transman) is 28. we will try to artifically inseminate in a few days for the very first time =)

[carmen358]

Congratulations, Vienna!!

Any update , Desert?

Lisedea: big hugs to you. I've also heard that 15 is borderline can be treated with IVF....good luck!

Good luck with the insems this weekend, Krista!

Brite: the RE I just saw feels the same way about progesterone. He said the research is very weak but that he is mostly ok with giving people a prescription if they want one.....I took the prescription....haven't decided if I will fill it. There has apparently been one study done looking at negative side effects on baby boys.

Eta: welcome janandjesse

Afm: I got the majority of my blood test results back. Everything looks really good. The only thing that was flagged "out of range" so far is that I apparently have a slightly elevated red blood cell count. No idea what that means.

[Skyandtru]

Vienna Congrats!!!! that is awesome