hi gals and welcome to all the newcomers! i've been keeping up with everyone here, but i haven't written anything in awhile, because i had a really hard time last month with the clomid and estradiol i was taking. it made me feel extremely depressed and hopeless, and DP had to deal with me weeping nearly non-stop for a few weeks. i decided to take a month off the meds just to give my body and mind a chance to rest. we inseminated early in the week so now i'm in the tww, and i'm feeling pretty laid back about the whole thing.
i'm going to visit a friend in amsterdam in a few weeks, and while i'm there i'm going to try to see a dutch gynecologist or even an RE. i figure that it's my only chance to see a doctor who will listen to my concerns and possibly prescribe a trigger. i've hit a wall as far as trying to find a french gynecologist who will do anything beyond prescribing clomid. my acupuncturist here in paris called several colleagues who are gyns but they all refused to take on a lesbian who is tcc as a patient. my acupuncturist was completely shocked by their responses and he even said "if the doctor isn't putting the patient's life in danger, who cares what the laws say." it's mindblowing that even most doctors don't know about the discrimination we face. on a more positive note, the french senate just recently shifted to the left and there's a presidential election coming up. with a socialist government in power, we should get full marriage rights and the right to adopt and have fertility treatments.... that could take a couple of years though, and at 39, i'm not sure i can wait. in other good news, we have a potential third donor who (if his STD tests are clean) will be able to help us on weekends if needed. this takes a lot of stress off us, because its means we don't have to rely on flakey donor anymore. the funny thing is that the new donor is american.
anyway... that's where i am. i'm not expecting a BFP this month, so i'll probably be back on clomid (eep!) in a few weeks. i'm sending baby dust and fertile thoughts to all of you gals out there in ttc-land!