I feel so disoriented! I never in a million years thought that I would be divorced, let alone be the one to end the marriage. I know that I can't live in that relationship any longer-- I think it was killing me.
After being separated from him for 4 months, the kids and I are finally starting to find a
groove. I think we are going to be able to keep homeschooling (fingers crossed), I am applying to a night grad school program, and I just got certified as a volunteer at the local women's shelter. Also I am finally allowing DDs some unsupervised visitation with their dad, so I will get some time to myself soon (weird).
Lately our daily routine has felt almost like an out-of-body experience for me. I am looking at this surreal new life, and it is not all bad. Some of the changes are even exciting, but it's like I don't recognize it (or me) anymore-- it is so not the life that I had planned. Sometimes I feel so disoriented that I feel like I could break apart into little pieces, or that that is what has happened to our lives.
Anyone BTDT with this feeling?