akind1, sending you lots of peaceful vibes. I can only imagine how frustrating it is while also being a bit scary remembering how your DS's birth went. It's funny but I don't remember having any major emotional breakdowns before I went in to labor with DD but I know it does happen with a lot of women. The morning of the day that my sis went in to labor with her second DD, she called me and just let loose. She was so done with what she thought was false labor and she was just mad! She called me at 3:30 that afternoon because the contractions had started again and she was so frustrated. By 5:30, I could tell in her voice that they had changed. She headed to the hospital at 7:30 PM and my niece was here at 9 PM! All the stuff you've been feeling so far is doing something. Oh and she had gone to the hospital the night before because she was convinced she was in labor and she was only 1 cm. When she went back to the hospital at 7:30 PM, she was 8-9 cm! Things can change SO fast!
Baby_Cakes, Finn is a chunk! I was so happy that DD hit 10 lbs the other day at 11 weeks...Finn could smash Ava!
AFM, you guys, I'm seriously having a MAJOR issue with returning to work. Monday is my first day back and I just don't know how I'm going to do it. It isn't so much being separated from DD because I won't be gone from her the entire day. I will see her during my lunch break. But I'm just concerned about how someone else is going to take care of her. She isn't the easiest baby to deal with. I'm worried that her babysitter is going to quit in a few weeks after taking care of her! Her babysitter has never done this before and the majority of her child care experience has been with her DD, my goddaughter. My goddaughter O is one of those trick babies, you know the ones that are so easy going and easy to take care of that they trick their parents in to having more because they think all babies are that way? I was emailing with M yesterday about DD's hunger and sleep cues and we were talking about getting together before Monday to go over some stuff. She made a comment about putting DD to bed early on Sat and Sun night so she would be well-rested Mon morning. I just started laughing to myself because there is no way that DD would tolerate going to bed before she is ready! She is a strongwilled little girl and just choosing an earlier sleep time would not work with her! On the other hand O has always been such a good sleeper so I can see how M would think that's all you need to do.
I took DD over to M's house last week and had her stay there for about an hour while I went to my office to do some paperwork with HR. She was fine while I was gone but as soon as she heard my voice, she started bawling. It broke my heart! I think that was one of the reasons why she was so clingy late last week. She didn't want to let me out of her sight again! Not working right now though is not an option. Everyone is on my insurance and we need to keep coverage on DD. If DH were able to find a different, better-paying job with better benefits, then I would be able to stop working. Gotta tell you that is high on my prayer list right now!
DD had a cardiology appt today. She's going to have to have another cath procedure in 4-6 weeks. Ugh, that is going to S.U.C.K. She will have to be sedated and intubated for that but it should be an outpatient procedure. If she has trouble being extubated then they will keep her overnight. She took a long time being extubated the last two times she was intubated but her dr thinks it was because she was so small. She also is having some sort of electrical issue in her ventricles so she had to get hooked up to a monitor for the next 24 hours. Kind of a pain but it's what she had on her for the first 3 weeks of her life so we are both used to it. Once they get the data from that, they will be able to get a better idea of what is going on.
I put the rocker/cradle thing away! She is sleeping either in my arms, in her sidecarred crib or in my bed. Yay!
MW, how long does D stay awake during the day? DD can only stay awake about an hour before she needs to go to sleep again.