I hate writing these as much as I hate reading them. Needless to say, I didn't get good news at my appointment today. The doppler couldn't find a heartbeat and the ultrasound showed a baby that stopped growing around 7 1/2 weeks, which is when I lost my first babe. I plan on having a D&C on Wednesday since my body is obviously not good at letting go of pregnancies.
At the moment I'm crying a lot, but I don't feel overly sad. I've been through this twice before, so it isn't a new pain, just another disappointment. I guess it's just weird in that I wasn't even sure if I wanted another baby and we weren't trying to have this one. I guess this pregnancy showed me that I actually want another baby, which is good. When I say good, I mean that it's good that I was able to come to a conclusion. I'm sure that my SO and I will start actually trying after all of this passes, so I'm sure I'll be back on these boards someday.
I wish all of you luck on your pregnancies!