I've done it three times, I KNOW I can do it. But I think I'm nervous... well, because I've done it three times! So I know it's hard work, and it's not easy. I've been spending time meditating, trying to face my fears and anxiety, and put my finger on what really scares me. This will be my first home birth, so I have a bit of apprehension there, not really what could go wrong, but more because it's different than before and I'm not entirely sure what to expect. Also, transition has always in the past been really hard for me emotionally. Like I hit this wall, and I doubt myself, and I don't want to do it anymore, etc. Also, I scream/yell/moan during transition and pushing and for some reason that's embarrassing to me. I wish I could be one of those women who is silent and calm.
I know on the other side, I'll be snuggling this baby and I'd be willing to do it all over again, but here on this brink of giving birth in the next week or two I'm scared!