My son is recently one and was a planned UC turned Cesarean section. The birth was, to put it mildly, really upsetting and traumatic. I wished and prayed so hard for a UC, but ultimately he was quite large and just didn't want to be born that way. I did not have complications with my Cesarean birth, just the normal sadness and disappointment over the loss of a normal birth, and sadness for my son that he did not get to actually be born the way nature intended. But, he's great now and doesn't seem to show any problems from the C/S.
Anyway, I recently found out that I am about 7 weeks along! My husband and I are shocked but thrilled. My son is still nursing and we plan to continue, of course. But, I have this nagging feeling that I need to try again to attain that UC I never had. I feel like I will never have a complete birth experience until I can actually push out a baby all on my own, without pharmaceuticals, doctors and monitors. I dream of normal birth often. I am so excited to have the chance to achieve it again.
My husband was never totally okay with UC, but he went along with it because I insisted. Now, he's pretty opposed. He says that my pelvis wasn't "meant for birthing." That hurts me beyond words. Am I nuts to go for a UC this time around? Last time, the doctor said I probably had undiagnosed GD which is why my son was so big. I don't think I did, but who knows? This time around, I would check my sugars with a home monitor just to be on the safe side. I am just so emotional and it's hard to know what to do. I just know that I have to give this baby a chance.