@ mtn.mama -- Very cool! I've been thinking that if you reach a certain awareness, that's how it would feel (and I hope to reach that point.)
@pregnova -- I'm working to spend more time in that space within where you don't have to ask, you just know. I'm pretty confident in my awareness at the moment, but I'm not at the point of discussing it publicly, so Lets just say I'm striving to get in touch with what is happening in my body without analyzing/obsessing every month ;)
*if* we have more babies, I definately want to explore doing UP. I'm thinking that I'm comfortable at least going the first few months & deciding if I want to see a midwife based on how confident/connected I felt (or based on information recieved from that connection)
It seems to me that intuition is like a muscle that needs excersize & I love hearing about other people's processes! Those HPTs are so hard to resist (and if I were on meds or about to get an xray or something, I'd definately see the benefit of immediate proof,) but I'm thinking that (for me anyway) it circumvents part of the process of connecting.
Before I had my youngest son, I had an early miscarriage & I know that could have been easier on me if I'd really looked within instead of fighting it -- then, getting pregnant right after the m/c I ran right in for the earliest ultrasound to confirm & my dates were off by Weeks leading me to believe I was having another m/c... I KNOW that if I'd spent the time/energy connecting with those pregnancies from the beginning (rather than relying on ultrasound & blood tests) it would have saved me a lot of stress. When i think about how I felt seeing the pregnancy tests, even though I knew in my body what was happening, it was like a Jolt (both pregnancies were accidents, believe it or not so i was quite shocked) I thought it was just that the hpt made it more 'real' but I'm considering that maybe it's not supposed to feel so real so early... conception is a pretty amazing & unreal thing. I'm thinking about the value of feeling that for a while.