I am having some serious nerves when it comes to delivery. I've been pretty relaxed up until now, it is a natural process, it has been happening forever. But now, with a little more that 48 hours to induction, I just feel panicked. I'm excited, but I'm also in total denial. I know that baby has to come out, one way or another. I'm tired of being pregnant, but at the same time, I would be fine if she and I could just hang out like this for...you know, forever. I don't like being uncomfortable or expressing discomfort, let a lot pain around other people. My ideal birth would be at home, alone, in a dark bathroom, with no lights. Unfortunately, that isn't reality for me and concessions are having to be made. It doesn't help that I keep reading up on neonatal mortality rates, maternal mortality rates, etc. I've made myself stop, but now it keeps popping into my head.
It is normal for first time moms to be totally freaked by this whole thing? DH is just over the moon that she is coming, everyone is so excited. I'm excited, but really really scared. And I hate mentioning that and getting the "it will be fine!" lip service. Were or are you totally freaked? Did it get better or worst once you were actually in labor? How did you deal with it? How did you channel it?