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[SoonToBe]

I had a fever yesterday from my 7th bout of mastitis (don't get me started).  The fever was almost gone by bed, but I was still a little warm.  I didn't want to cook Elliott so instead of having him belly to belly with me, I put him on his back and slid him about 6-8 inches away.  He would wriggle his way over to me and put himself on his side so he was belly to belly with me.  How stinking cute is that?  I didn't see him do it, but I would wake up and there he was.  I slid him back 2 more times and he kept doing it, so I just kept him there since I didn't feel as hot anymore either.  Isn't that so sweet?

[Tamera]

How cute! Augustus did that with my husband once when I got out of bed. He scooted himself over to cuddle. Sweet babies!

[Beckily]

Charlie does it, too :) I'll nurse him on my side and then move him so I can be comfortable. Sometimes I have to move him three or so times because he wiggles so close so quickly.

The other day I had him between us but closer to Dusty and he scooted and then rolled onto his side (I think) and had his leg propped up on my back, his tummy against it and one arm up, hugging me. I was on my side, facing away from him.

I don't think there's anything better in life.

I love it that you're sticking with breastfeeding and that he's loving you up so much, Bree :D

[SoonToBe]

Originally Posted by Beckily 

I love it that you're sticking with breastfeeding and that he's loving you up so much, Bree :D

Thanks Becky.  Tonight has been very hard.  My nipples are very sore.  Since the good nip is even getting sore, I worry it could be the start of thrush since I've been on so many antibiotics.  I hope not.  I hope one day I can feed him without pain.  Does feeding Charlie really not hurt at all? 

[Beckily]

Originally Posted by SoonToBe 

Thanks Becky.  Tonight has been very hard.  My nipples are very sore.  Since the good nip is even getting sore, I worry it could be the start of thrush since I've been on so many antibiotics.  I hope not.  I hope one day I can feed him without pain.  Does feeding Charlie really not hurt at all? 

Usually it doesn't!

Sometimes we have a bad angle or a bad latch. We did have a stint of thrush and that friggin' hurt.

But, no. You're going to get that cleared up and then you'll see. The latch is good and then it's just gentle sucking. Sometimes I'm doing something else while he nurses and forget he's even doing it and rip the boob out of his mouth because I moved. That doesn't feel good! Sometimes he'll pull back and shake his head, that hurts.

Mostly it doesn't feel like much or it feels vaguely nice. If he latches on a hard nipple, it feels a bit painful, but gets better when it releases. When you're all engorged and painful, it feels gooood ;) I always thank him then.

You will get there. You have to. None of us could stand it if you didn't.

Maybe be proactive on the thrush and do a ACV/water rinse a few times a day? 1:4. I didn't rinse it off before he nursed, so he'd get a bit in his mouth, too.

You're very well-loved and we're all rooting for you so hard. I wish I was closer so I could DO something. :(

[Lynann]

Originally Posted by Beckily 

You will get there. You have to. None of us could stand it if you didn't.

You're very well-loved and we're all rooting for you so hard. I wish I was closer so I could DO something. :(

Hope this longer doze of antibiotics does finally clear this up for good. You are an incredibly amazing Mama Bree to go through all this pain and not give up.

[Baby_Cakes]

Originally Posted by Beckily 

You're very well-loved and we're all rooting for you so hard. I wish I was closer so I could DO something. :(

  You must know we are ALL rooting for you, Bree!  You are awesome for continuing this long and perservering even longer.  Love and hugs, mama!!

[elove]

Originally Posted by Beckily 

You will get there. You have to. None of us could stand it if you didn't.

Maybe be proactive on the thrush and do a ACV/water rinse a few times a day? 1:4. I didn't rinse it off before he nursed, so he'd get a bit in his mouth, too.

You're very well-loved and we're all rooting for you so hard. I wish I was closer so I could DO something. :(

  i 2nd, 3rd or 4th this..also the vinegar solution cannot hurt! i do it preemptively. I got a little spray bottle for  it.
 

[SoonToBe]

You guys are the best!  I really feel like you are my friends.  Thanks for all your support.

I talked to a LLL leader and then went to a LLL meeting and got tips.  Super supportive people, but I'm not sure their advice will do much, but I'll try it.  I actually decided today to see another breast specialist.  I just know in my heart that the infection is going to come back or it's not gone.  My breast is still slightly pink and my whole body is still achy.  This is just how it's been since he was born.  If the boob was not pink and I felt good, I'd think it was gone.  Anyway, I am seeing a different specialist on Tuesday.  I told them I don't need more ultrasounds and stuff.  What I want it for them to take a culture from my breast and milk to see what bacteria we are dealing with so I take the right antibiotic.  I really hate being on antibiotics, but I feel like it's better for me to take them and continue breastfeeding than it is to stop nursing or not take antibiotics.  I know he is only getting less than 1% of what I take, but I still hate that I'm doing it.  Sigh.  I am crossing all my crossables that this doc will be able to help.  I am so done.  I'm feeling a little depressed today even though nothing bad happened and I'm feeling ok.  I just feel depressed that this keeps happening and that I'm so achy.  I can't go up and down the stairs easily and I just feel like I was run over all the time.  I'm ok.  This can't go on forever. 

I have researched recurrent mastitis and there were three things that were the main culprits: 1. failing to get rid of the previous infection by stopping the antibiotic before the end of the course or taking the wrong antibiotic; 2. low iron; 3. overdoing it

I don't think I'm overdoing it unless going to the grocery store and hanging up cloth diapers counts.  My iron could be low since it had dropped during pregnancy, but it was actually high before it so I'm not prone to low levels.  I think I'll have it tested just to make sure.  I think I'm on the wrong antibiotic.  I hope I don't need something stronger because the ones I have been on now are super safe for nursing...in fact, they are the safest ones and are a L1 just like vitamins and Tylenol and stuff.

I know you guys are behind me and I can't tell you how much I appreciate it.  I am proud of myself for persevering, but I'm losing hope.  I don't intend on quitting nursing by any means, but I'm feeling defeated that I will always get the infection every two weeks.  To be honest, I'd feel lucky if I could just get it once every couple months.  I'd feel even better if I could get rid of it without antibiotics. 

So I have the antibiotics until Thursday of next week and I see the other doc Tues.  Maybe she can give me some answers.

[cat13]

[elove]

good luck w the appointments, remember that you are your best advocate in this health system. if your gut is telling you something is up, it is smart to get it checked and i think it is a wonderful idea to know what bugs you are dealing w to take more targeted medication. I also learned the hard way that when they say rest it means staying in bed and not even doing dishes..not sure that is a possibility but try to rest up more than you have been..

you can do this!

[veggiemomto2]

Thinking of you, Bree! I was on a bunch of different abx while nursing my older ds. Most of them are ok. I know you'd rather not take one, but sometimes you don't have much of a choice. I really hope you can kick this thing and it never ever comes back!