I am afraid to talk to anyone about this. There really is no one to talk to! No one gets it. I just want people to stay away and not speak to me anymore because I feel so horrible. No one wants to help me. Other than, of course, the quick fix people like....drugs. I am not willing to take anti-depressants. I have before and it is not something I am willing to do again. No one wants to actually deal with the problems. Everywhere I turn, people watch too much TV and think doctors are gods who can do no wrong, therefore, it must all just be a big misunderstanding. No one understands or cares.
People always say "talk to your doctor about this." Ummm....which doctor? The one who screwed me over and almost killed my baby? Ask him why he is such a lying a-hole who abandoned me when I needed him most? That the whole reason I drove an hour each way and waited two hours in his waiting room each time was because HE was supposed to be my doctor. But in the end, he did not even have a doctor on call who was willing to see me or treat me and I was forced to scramble to find another doctor at the last second. OR would it be his good friend..the family doctor who has been out family physician for 10 yrs? Tell that man what an A his friend is and how he has caused me to go in to this depression where I just keep thinking about what his friend did to me, over and over again.....trying to process what happened and how anyone could do that to someone?