I'm planning an HBAC with an ND/midwife. She's really awesome and works with an acupuncturist/doula as well as another ND/midwife. I met her while TTC two years ago. Her practice is the only homebirth practice on my island, but I've heard wonderful things about her, and I liked her when we talked. I also really like the fact that she actively cultivates relationships with natural-minded and home-birth supportive OB's. So she gave me some recommendations for OB's to see so I can get my tests covered w/out hassle.
My first appt is October 22, a Saturday. She's awesome like that. :D
Oh, also, for books, I recommend "Birthing From Within". Like you, I wasn't able to relax enough to give birth in the hospital environment, and the stress really got to me, and I ended up with a coerced C/s, which was totally un-fun. Never want to do THAT again, that's for sure. But, on the other hand, I feel like if I'd explored my feelings and followed some of the advice in that book, I might just have been able to do it. Maybe. But I'll be doing a lot of work from that book so that I can work through my issues from the last birth so I'm free to give it my all this time around.