I've had depression and anxiety before, now it's much more anxiety. I feel very scared a lot of the time, have that anxiety feeling in my stomach and almost feel panicked. I've also lost my apetite. Within the past 2 weeks I have been back to my doctor and said I just can't cope with it anymore, trying to be strong but feeling awful inside, so out of desperation I accepted anxiety medication to try, just 10mg to start with. I'll be going back to review how Im feeling with the doctor in another 2 weeks which seems forever away, and hoping he will put my dosage upto 20mg.
It's been just over a week and he said it would take 2 weeks to work, I felt okay for a few days but now I'm extremely anxious again, and what's worse I can't stop crying sometimes. I feel like constantly just barely under the surface is all this crying I'm needing to do, but im trying so hard to be strong and keep it in. Especially around my child. I'm barely able to control this and not cry, it's awful and I don't know what to do. I've told my family about it and they are being sympathetic and supportive. I'm scared I'm going to have a nervous breakdown and completely lose it or something...seriously. I just want to hide away from the world I feel so scared. I wish I could move in with my parents to be honest. I feel worse when I'm alone, which is a lot lately.
I've had a major crying session today while my child was at school, but I'm really worried I'll fall apart in front of him and be crying in a state. I know kids have to see their parents get upset sometimes, but I don't want to lose it infront of him. Not to mention it's the weekend tomorrow, so there will be no chance of hiding my emotions, I really feel at the mercy of them and not in control of them. We at least have plans tomorrow all day, so maybe that will distract me enough to stop all this emotional stuff coming out, but if not I don't know what I'll do because it's a family gathering.
Anyone else been here or have any advice? Is there an anxiety support thread or anything here? Please help